u/Anonymousgirl5109

So u might not understand this if u haven't seen previous post but in summary ,basically my father's going through a hard time and expects me to be there , support him and emotionally take care of him(NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY AS THEIR CHILD)even though he wasn't there emotionally when I needed him which caused a lot of distance and lack of trust which can't be regained so easily.(If you are interested to see the previous post check out my profile)

Now recently he was acting kinda maniac , laughing at his own problems and saying how I was an example of his own wrong parenting and how God has trapped him with bad luck everywhere that is in career, relationships etc just cause I was on my phone with my relatives on call and accidentally did spilt screen which made me look like I wasn't talking at all on the call and was just using that time to watch reels. But somehow he fails to be observant, see the full scenario , be considerate and most importantly understand me. He straight up refused to take an important suggestion by me which was to take therapy cause he was berating me abt how his mental health is bad rn and he needs his 'family' to be there and support him and he doesn't believe in therapy. Now it can be hard to suddenly stop believing in something you've seen and heard about ur entire childhood but he won't even try therapy? But somehow I'm expected to change for him , be considerate , be his loving daughter , be emotionally attached and even stop being agnostic (someone who doesn't know if God exists) just cause he's religious and even if he never apologised for what he put me through...he never has apologised till now...I'm very aware so i feel bad for myself because I'm not financially independent yet to move out, I've been counting the days till I can do that. He even refused to let ME to therapy for my mental health at least and has offered to 'maybe' set up a session with some mediation therapist (cause I've been having bit of memory loss due to my trauma)or something who's definitely not specialist to help traumatized people..I'm so tired of this..but i know a life is beyond this place and I can feel it coming close. What do y'all think? Am i wrong , I'm certainly sure I ain't wrong but I wanted to explore more perspectives. Currently I'm focusing on my academic life and on self care to distract myself from all of this .

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So what happened was that my father has been going through a hard time , during this he mentions about me not wanting to talk to him much or spend time with him a lot now this is because before his hard time he would be constantly busy in work and that was no issue what was a issue was that he would remove that anger and frustration on me. Everyday whenever I came back from somewhere he would talk to me in an ungentle or frustrated way. This made me cry in secret a lot because i couldn't even express myself in front of him cause he had said he would give me a 'real reason' to cry for, i eventually moved on from him and do not love him or feel anything for him anymore and I know I'm not wrong but I still wanted to know for other people..he now expects me to help him during his on going hard time...as he tries to act nice and kind but I know i don't have to do that, it's hard to be in his presence and he even yelled about how he failed in parenting me cause I'm agnostic and they are religious though I'm fully aware that isn't a failure and he has also berated me of being obsessed with my phone though that's the only way that I could cope with them being toxic and making me feel miserable. i don't have enough money right now to move out from this hellhole..so what do you all think?..am i wrong for feeling this way?