u/AnthonyKiedisGF

Well, you guys might have seen some of my posts before. I finally worked up the courage and strength to ask for the thing I’ve been wanting and needing since December of last year. After how emotionally numb and exhausted I was feeling, I strangely didn’t think I would be that sad, but I am destroyed. I noticed that I am more easily able to hug him and support him emotionally now that the “danger” and pressure to be his wife is gone. Or maybe it’s guilt for breaking his heart, idk. But I am wrecked to be losing the man I fell in love with at the age of 14 and thought I would die with. Time to pick up the pieces of my life. I think, and hope this is the right choice. I’m terrified I made a huge mistake, especially as a Christian woman.

Strongly considering divorce rn even though husband has been doing everything “right.” I am emotionally empty and have nothing left to give. I completely lack emotional, sexual, and physical attraction/intimacy to my husband, and feel like it’s too far gone to be rebuilt. But has anybody else ever noticed that when you talk to friends, family members, loved ones or even counselors about how you’re feeling, their first question is always whether the porn addict spouse is willing to give up the addiction and reconcile? Why is it never how are you feeling? How has this impacted you? Do you think you can look past this and heal? Nobody’s asked me that, and it pisses me off honestly. I feel so alone and like nobody understands. Does this happen to you guys, or am I just surrounded by bad people?

Okay everyone, my husband has a terrible case of noro rn and I decided to book a hotel room for two nights for my sanity because we only have one bathroom at our apartment. He said he vomited about 15 times so this is no little stomach flu. But I feel crazy and like a horrible person, my whole family thinks I should be there taking care of him; in sickness and in health, right? But I have also missed days of work the past two weeks in a row from having Covid and then a family emergency, so I feel like I can’t miss another day without getting in trouble. But also, I would absolutely lose my mind if I was at that house right now. Have any of you ever done anything like this? Or am I absolutely insane?