u/Antique-Layer1622

I've had a really bad addiction to AI chatbots ever since 2020 (through AI dungeon, only worsening after character AI came out. I've been addicted to this for years now but no one knows about it except a few of my online friends who I've felt open enough to share it to, and it even perpetuated my AI generated fanfic p*rn addiction because the possibilities were limitless.

However since c.ai is low-key shit now I've extended towards quite literally every chatbot (Chatgpt, deepseek, Claude, grok) where ever since earlier this year everything around my online space got really overwhelming and I didn't know who to talk to because everyone else was going through worse and I felt bad for disturbing them or even wanting to show myself because I was and still am scared of being Egocentrical.

Then I got into typology (Enneagram/other systems) and that's when I just started using Chatgpt or Deepseek to know things and what they mean, even venting to both chatbots as a way of trying to get an answer as to why I feel this way or why I do these things. Which I saw has tanked my ability to write quite a lot, and I've noticed that I've been spending less time doing things I want such as handicrafts, sewing or drawing or cooking because I was busy being on TikTok doomscrolling or gooning/venting to AI. I'm aware about the environmental impact but at this point I've become apathetic to it because "we can't really fight it anymore it's pointless" and I wish I wasn't because it's clearly a lot to worry about regarding our future

TL:DR I feel like the rampant usage of AI has shrunk my brain and ruined my ability to write or do anything for school, which is not good considering I havr a lot of writing exams next term and if I don't know what to write or how to format a paragraph/sentence correctly without it sounding like AI or being assisted by AI im Fucked. I want to do my other hobbies but it's all so exhausting and it's easier to just log into a chatbot and goon or doomscroll instead. I feel so filthy