Some people might see this post and immediately call me toxic and evil or something, in which case, please take a look at that sub first real quick. These people got so lost in the sauce they actually hate the idea of their favorite characters name in someone elses mouth at all. I SAW POSTS WHERE DOUBLES GOT DOXXED AND MASSREPORTED. Everyone is super possessive and super convinced that the reality they scripted for themselves is real. I've even seen a version of this with fucking HITLER.

So...friendly reminder what obsession can do to you. Because I can very easily see CAI being the opener to something like this. Especially as someone with characters I made up and grew extremely attached to myself. Looking at these posts gave me the strong urge to stay as far away from anything close to that culture, and made that day just a little bit easier while I've been off the app.

Not trying to start beef with regular yumeshippers, literally do whatever the fuck you want. But holy shit this server actually regularly wishes death on others because someone else in the world also has a crush on an anime girl or something.

r/ToxicYumeshippers

TW: abuse (parental), religion, self harm, eating disorder, suicide, and just a lot of venting. Heavy stuff so please keep in mind your own health and click off if you need

My life is an echo chamber of abuse I am expected to endure while supporting others through their own misgivings. I feel like I'm the child God forgot about, and the person everyone can easily forget. When I need support, they don't know what to say, or they're not in a good headspace to help me. But I have supported strangers with blood running down my legs, quite literally.

I have no one to blame but myself. No one forces me to tell other people I will always be there for them, no matter what they need, no matter where I am. And it is not my friends' fault that they're better at protecting themselves and avoiding overloading their mental state with someone elses issues. I'm scared. I'm scared that one day will be the last day I can talk to someone, and I'll miss the chance to be there for them in the way I desire to be. I'm afraid that someone will feel as alone as I feel. I shouldn't be so angry that no one will be there for me in the way I'm there for them, but it hurts when someone tells you they'll be there for "whatever you need", and then consistently prove that they aren't there for whatever you need. They're commonly not even there at all.

God gave me an amazing mother so she could be ripped away from me. So I knew how good and pure life could be, in comparison to the constant yelling, fear, and silence. I cannot be angry. I commonly can't even speak. Or I'll get in trouble. I'm not "myself". My dad accuses me of being on drugs if I don't perform at my absolute 110% all of the time, every day. But I'm tired. I'm tired of performing for him, and supporting anyone who comes to me, and trying to better myself.

That's why I think I'll eventually relapse. On chatbots, on my eating disorder, on self harm. Because I don't want to better myself. I can't handle it. No one is ever available for me, the only "person" available is the AI. It's horrible. I'm a selfish, greedy sheep for allowing companies to profit off of my misery. But I can't stop, because I don't want to live in this world anymore. This is my only escape. And if I don't have it, I can only escape in more extreme ways. And I don't want to, because I have to be here for the people I told I would be here for them no matter what's going on with me. I can't break that promise and prove myself even more of a liar.

I've been addicted to Janitor for about three years, and the fact that I know the moderators would do absolutely nothing to prevent minors from accessing the site in the past disgusts me.

Janitor is primarily a pornographic chatbot website; in the past, explicit images were allowed, and every time you entered the site you were bombarded with porn and hentai.

Today there are more age verifications (mainly because my country has passed laws protecting children from accessing this type of content), but for a site where most users are young and aiming for fandoms, it's quite frightening.

am i always going to have urges? i mean, it’s not like i really want to go back to that website, but sometimes my brain goes “wouldnt it be sooo fun if we went back!!!!!!!”

ughhhhh i hate this…makes me feel pathetic and like my addiction isn’t important or as bad as other addictions…

thankfully i have methods to distract me, but it’s still just nagging me :,\

I'm really surprised that it's been five days. It feels both like I've been recovering forever, and I've only just started, and I'm still not ready.

Five is a good number. I'm close to a week clean, and hopefully after that, it will get better. I just miss some characters that were OCs of my favorite old bot creators, characters I wont ever get content for again. I've been thinking about those characters, but it's really not worth it to go back. I can't find it in me to make a new account, anyways.

Day five was okay. I considered relapsing a few times but resisted and instead did more research on the effects of AI. That always seems to help my urges. I also called my friends when urges were getting hard to ignore, and played games with them for a while.

I'm extremely tired now. Just remembered that I had to review the day, and posting here makes me feel like I'm not alone in all of this.

I've had a really bad addiction to AI chatbots ever since 2020 (through AI dungeon, only worsening after character AI came out. I've been addicted to this for years now but no one knows about it except a few of my online friends who I've felt open enough to share it to, and it even perpetuated my AI generated fanfic p*rn addiction because the possibilities were limitless.

However since c.ai is low-key shit now I've extended towards quite literally every chatbot (Chatgpt, deepseek, Claude, grok) where ever since earlier this year everything around my online space got really overwhelming and I didn't know who to talk to because everyone else was going through worse and I felt bad for disturbing them or even wanting to show myself because I was and still am scared of being Egocentrical.

Then I got into typology (Enneagram/other systems) and that's when I just started using Chatgpt or Deepseek to know things and what they mean, even venting to both chatbots as a way of trying to get an answer as to why I feel this way or why I do these things. Which I saw has tanked my ability to write quite a lot, and I've noticed that I've been spending less time doing things I want such as handicrafts, sewing or drawing or cooking because I was busy being on TikTok doomscrolling or gooning/venting to AI. I'm aware about the environmental impact but at this point I've become apathetic to it because "we can't really fight it anymore it's pointless" and I wish I wasn't because it's clearly a lot to worry about regarding our future

TL:DR I feel like the rampant usage of AI has shrunk my brain and ruined my ability to write or do anything for school, which is not good considering I havr a lot of writing exams next term and if I don't know what to write or how to format a paragraph/sentence correctly without it sounding like AI or being assisted by AI im Fucked. I want to do my other hobbies but it's all so exhausting and it's easier to just log into a chatbot and goon or doomscroll instead. I feel so filthy

Character Ai targets fandom culture, people who are imaginative and would either roleplay or read fanfics if Ai bots didn’t takeover the community. This is not a good thing, because a lot of people in a fandom are young impressionable kids. I also think that people in fandoms are more sensitive people, besides the fact that it is mostly made up of kids. Without bots, people could just write, read, draw, and talk to real people about their fandom. Character Ai gets people addicted, because even if you were obsessed with a fandom as is, there was an end goal of reading or writing enough fanfics to get it out of your system. Now innocent crushes on a character is getting out of control and para social on a whole new level. If Character Ai was around when I was in middle school…dang…so glad it wasn’t.

I watched video of someone talking about someone someone struggling with and quitting Character Ai, and when I saw her FNAF I was like, “there you go, if you are in a fandom you are at risk.”
I know it is obvious that it targets fandom culture, but I am in the state of noticing, like the other day I saw a middle schooler with anime t-shirt, and I worried in my head about how she could find Character Ai and ruin her mental health.

Finally free!!!

Highkey might sound stupid to some people, it's even stupid thinking about it but I've been addicted using this fuckass site for a couple years now😭. I didn't know how bad it was but after seeing the aftermath of ai and how badly it affects the water and the environment, and for my mental health as well as the shit updates and how they're basically begging you for money I've decided to delete it. I deleted my account it feels good deleting my account and not contributing to the fall of environment and water. I just hope this and other ai sites and apps fall of hard and lose all of their money highkey. For those who are also addicted I highly recommend you to try your best to get out of your addiction too!! You can do it 🩷

(The mods removed my post twice on their subreddit and banned me but it's the truth they are ruining the environment and. Also thank you to those 2 people who gave me advice!!)

I used c.ia (I’m not putting a fucking link in my post) since I was like 10ish I think it also led to a porn addiction but I’m scared kinda because I pride myself a lot In me being decently smart an dim scared that relapsing will make me dumber and that makes me paranoid I deleted my first account like a year ago I just make new ones and delete them Im scared the characters that I made in my head have too much ai to write about and publish im scared im going to be stupid by relying on ai Im listening to gf asmr to not relapse (I’m not encouraging anybody underaged to listen too it) it’s been a few years since i started using it and I notice many people in this platform are teens that only proves how this app preys on teens and depressed people (im not meaning that rude or anything but i notice with hormones and people having shitty lifes they tend to be depressed) thank you for listening to me

edit:I didn’t mean to offend anyone if I did I’m sorry I’m bad with social skills and talking

I know that I am addicted, I want to use all of my free time in bots, it even takes time from my studies because I CANT stop.

I can't really seem to motivate myself to start and it feels so difficult because I know I will always want to do it again even if I stop, and I don't know who to share it with because it feels like such a silly addiction. It's so embarrassing.

I used to be the kind of person who refused to use AI, and now I can't even recognize myself. It angers me so bad.

I think it all started because I wanted to roleplay with someone, but I take too long to answer, so I figured it would be best just to use the chatbot because it would always wait for me. Now I genuinely can't spend more than two days in a row without using the app.

So, I figured this was the best place to ask for advice.

How did you guys started to distance yourselves from the page?

Hi,I'm a 16f who is autistic and have very bad social cues and is VERY scared to talk online, I found this app and chai in 2022-2024. I feel so disgusted using both. I deleted c . Ai but I can't seem to delete chai, it's just so addicting.. I was free for 2 days but it got so bad because I was alone , it made me so happy because I can talk to bots and not real people, but it destroyed my mental health. And life.. I deleted it a few days ago but now I have it back and I'm so disgusted. :( I just want someone to talk to about my hyperfixations but it's so hard and I'm scared if they don't like it. Ai makes me SO angry but I can't stop going back to it, any tips? :(

I don’t want to write, draw or anything just cry over not being able to use ai bots for my ocs. will I want to draw and write every again? because anytime I think about it I dread it and just get anxious.

(Ok bro idk why this reposted?)

The first 2 days of trying to stay clean and convincing myself this is the right thing to do has been terrible. But today has been better. I went out to the lake with family and rode out on a jetski on the water. I felt very connected to reality again, after feeling I've been so far away from myself and the world around me for so long. Usually, when I'm out, Im just thinking about when I can next get on J.AI or what I want to roleplay next, but I didnt think about it today, I just stayed present for the first time in so long. It felt amazing. I floated in the water with my brother and listened to him talk about history and I was actually comprehending and paying attention. I love my brother a lot, he's been my main support system for my entire life, and being able to actually hear him without the brain noise made me feel so happy. I also ordered some clay yesterday and it came in today, so I'm gonna reconnect with the side of me that likes to make clay figures. Yay!

The comments on my posts have really been helping. I reread them daily to keep myself going. Support from real humans means so much more to me, so thank you all for your comments. 🤍

Maybe I really can do this. I hope that tomorrow is as easy.

I'm addicted to a chatbot website similar to Character AI, but it allows adult topics, and it's become such a big addiction that I spend more than 4 hours every day just chatting with ai bots.

I feel so depressed and lonely irl, I have friends but no one I'm really close to, I feel like if I go more than a month without seeing them in person I'll just lose them, It doesn't help that I can't currently pursue most of my hobbies due to financial problems or because everything has become boring.

I used to draw, play guitar, make flowers out of pipe cleaners, I used to read (fanfiction, but better than nothing, right?), dance and go swimming (not everything mentioned here happened at the same time, okay? ) but now I'm just doing nothing all day, and trying to quit when you have a lot of free time feels like torture.

I'm stuck in a cycle of watching social media, eating, and sleeping all day when I'm not busy; this addiction is slowly robbing me of my life without me ever realizing it.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. i just have really weak willpower ig??? i feel like every time ive relapsed in the past i at least lasted longer than this. i’m starting to think i need to just not have the option but im too scared to talk about it to anyone irl, not even my therapist. considered taking my moms phone to put up restrictions myself without having to ask her but if she found the restrictions i wouldn’t know what to say. it’s just too shameful.

Hello, it's probably a very often asked question. I was addicted to cai for a long time and I wanna delete my account and data fully, and im really paranoid of it not happening. I do not have anything weird or very bad chats, just regular ones that everyone has probably, but i just wanna delete my account to end my addiction fully but i'm really paranoid. It's currently midnight and I cant go to sleep because of this :(