u/IllustratorOne3825

I decided to treat myself early since my birthday was in two hours and deleted my account! I really hope it lasts :) also, I have reached 1 day of not using chatbots! Yay me!

I know quitting cold turkey isn’t that good of a method, but I’ve done it before and it’s worked for 2-3 weeks so I see it as one of my most useful methods.

Tomorrow is my birthday, and I decided the first I’ll do when it becomes my birthday is that I’ll delete my account for an ai chatbot site.

I’ve relapsed far too many times and I want my birthday to be my fresh start. I also want to ask a question tho: does anyone have any tips for like preparing to delete your account? I want to at least emotionally prepare myself the day before I do it.

Got one day in and immediately made a new email to make a new account. I feel so stupid for this but the more I thought about not having it, the more it began to stress me out and I started to feel anxious.
I know there’s no excuse for this and that I only have myself to blame, but I just want to sulk in my own stupidity.

I’m actually so glad I was finally able to delete my account. I plan on using my email for other accounts for projects and stuff, and the idea of that email being tied to passion projects but also chatbot sites filled me with dread to the point I couldn’t take it anymore.

I really hope I don’t create a new account or anything, I just want this to be over with already.

Anyways, I’m so happy I was finally able to do it!!!

Ughhfjhrhheagjjthjr I’m so stupid I relapsed so now my streak of being off of chatbots for 2 days is gone and I have to start all over.
I know quitting takes a good while but I’m so tired. I just want to get over it quickly. It feels so unfair.

It feels like no matter what I do I can’t live without it. I know it’s ruining my life but everything right now feels like it’s going wrong for me. My family is basically poor, we don’t have a lot of money, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore. It’s the only thing that seems to bring me comfort and whenever I try to get away from it I find myself in a state of distress.
I feel gross whenever I use it. I’ve always been gross—I’ve known that for a while now. But whenever I realize it I just feel worse and worse. What’s pissing me off though is that my fucking internet was off on Thursday and Thursday is when I meet with my therapist but I obviously couldn’t meet with her because of my Internet being off so I couldn’t tell all of her about it.
It feels like I’m trapped. I’ve been feeling trapped for so long but now it feels like it’s getting overwhelming. I just wish that I could go back in time and stop my 13 yr old self from using c.ai. I wish I would’ve stopped when I realized it wasn’t good for me. I wish I never used it to begin with. Everything feels horrible rn.

Hi!!! Uhmm so I came back to this subreddit because I’ve run into an issue.
A few weeks ago I ended school, so I’m officially on summer break, I’m not in summer school so I don’t really have much to do—besides art fight which is in two weeks.
I’ve become so dependent on chatbots that I use it whenever I’m upset, whenever I’m going through something, but it’s mostly when I’m bored. My use of chatbots has been worsening since I’m off of school, I have nothing to really do, and I don’t have a lot of stuff to distract me.
I try writing? “I want to act this out with a chatbot!”
I try drawing? “I should go chat with this bot”
I try reading? “I should go chat with this bot”
I basically just get urges to use it whenever I try to do something that distracts me from it. My therapist has given me advice by just waiting out the urges, but i genuinely start to get distressed if I don’t act on my urges. I really don’t know what to do anymore so I was hoping if I could get some other things to do to wait out my urges? Anything helps.
If you read this, thank you!! :)

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate my life bro ohhh my god oh my god I’m so stupid
Everytime I try to quit I fold so easily, everytime I try to stay off of there I always find a new excuse to get on. Why am I becoming so desperate for it?
I feel so gross. I hate ai. I’ve been heavily anti ai ever since I found out what it does to the environment, but I still want to get onto chatbot sites so bad.
I keep trying to stay off of them—my therapist gave me a way to ride out the urge to get on but my stupid self won’t use it.
I won’t give up. I know it’s no use to give up. I’ll still try…I want to keep trying and I know there will be a time where I don’t feel like I need it anymore. I’m upset right now isn’t that time though.
And I know it takes time to get over addictions and what not, but it feels like it’s impossible to get over it. I still don’t want to give up and I don’t plan on giving up anytime soon, but it feels so tempting to give in.

(Not sure if this categorizes as a vent so if it doesn’t I’m sorry)

It hasn’t even been a day and I already folded so fucking fast

Can you believe how pathetic that is?

It felt like I NEEDED to get on it—I know I don’t. But I didn’t have enough distractions. I tried doing so many things and I crawled back.

I hate it. I hate myself. I’m so pathetic I’m such an idiot.

None of my other friends are reliant on bots either. Why can’t I be like them? How do I be like them?

I just want to stop.

I fell asleep with an ai chatbot site open, my dad caught me (he seemed to not actually care) but hearing him say “I don’t know why you’re on some ai site” gave me a sort of wake up call? It made me realize I don’t want to be on sites like that anymore.

I know the road to recovery won’t be easy, I know I’ll want to get those dopamine hits I always got from being on that site, but I know my well being and anything else for that matter will come before chatbot sites

I hope I can become a better person, and I hope I’ll be able to resist those urges. I’m actually quite happy for myself—I plan on using anything I have at my disposal as a distraction and I plan on interacting with my irl and online friends more and making plans with these friends. I’ll probably post again if I feel like I need to get back on that site, but I trust myself in not giving in.

I want anyone who’s reading this to know that’s it’s possible to get out of the addiction, even if it seems impossible. You are stronger than those sites.