I still haven’t been to the hospital,
Hes in ICU, 3 stents, ive spent the morning crying because wtf man. I got into a fight w him 2 days back and was so angry at him, im just praying continuously atp, his pulmonary are severely damaged is what the doc has said. He said its a very complicated case.
We have been together for just over a year now and suddenly everything about what he does is annoying me these days. I have been sick for a month and a half and now on complete bed rest due to typhoid fever So maybe that also constitutes to it. But yeah, I have been constantly replaying all our fights and some things that he has said to me in the past during arguments like “what kind of girl am I with if she cannot listen to reason in public or like I have seen friends do better than this to take care and be there for people so what kind of life partner are you etc etc” I thought we had moved past all of this, but I have started feeling angry about these things out of nowhere. Also I knew that he was meat eater and being a vegetarian. I was okay with it now today he asked about shifting to complete meat diet and I got annoyed, even though I should not be mad about his dietary preferences because I have not been in the past year also, now things about his family and how our families are incompatible and everything has started to make me anxious out of nowhere, and I feel so angry and done all the time I don’t know what is happening. I don’t want to feel like I am falling out of love. I have no idea what’s happening. what to do? Two days back, he got jealous over me, liking a celebrity picture on Instagram, and that also annoyed me so much. I didn’t say anything. I just felt like what the fuck bro.
I knew that he was a very jealous and possessive person, and we have had so many fights over those, but we have not had any recent fights, but it is suddenly bothering me again, and I am so sad.