2.5 years. No appreciation. Just criticism. And now I'm sick and alone in this.
ok so. 2.5 years at a big 4 firm. i've pulled all nighters till 6am more times than i can count. not once did anyone say good job. but the one time i made a small mistake it was brought up like i committed a crime.
Anyway last 2 months my health just decided to fully give up. first it was some infection type thing, doctor said take leave, i did the right thing, got the certificate, gave it to hr, all proper. then like a month later boom another issue. more leave. and i KNOW how that sounds like i'm just making excuses at this point but i swear it's not that. i have literally every medical report saved. fever that won't go down, body pain where i genuinely cannot sit up straight, throwing up.
This isn't me being dramatic but the guilt is the worst part honestly. every single day i take off i feel like i'm the worst employee alive and then my manager. i was going through all this and instead of even asking how i was doing he just tells me "is this even your responsibility toward the engagement." like that was it. that was the whole conversation.
2.5 years and that's what i get
i don't know what to do anymore. do i stick it out, do i resign now while i'm still recovering, do i wait it out till i'm better and then leave on my own terms. genuinely lost here has anyone been through something like this, what did you do