I have bad misophonia right and i can't stand the sound of any chewing or whispering if someones doing it beside me however i'll be on tiktok or another form of social media and and asmr video will pop up. Weird enough asmr videos doesn't trigger my misophonia. Does anyone else relate?
This is a short random post but is it weird or does anyone else relate?
Hello to anyone reading this. I just created this account because i never thought to asked people on reddit for advice however i thought it give it a try.
I (16)F struggle with misophonia. I didn't know what I struggle with had a name until I started using the internet a few years ago. I don't know or remember how something like misophonia developed but for me It started when I was little, I'd be at school and the sound of someone drinking water from their water bottle made me want to cry and I didn't know what It meant at the time. As I got older my intolerance for mouth breathers and chewing got more intense. At the dinner table all I could focus on was the sound of the food squishing in their mouths and the lips smacking after each bite. The sound would make me angry, it makes me want to hurt people. It's difficult to go day to day and live on when there's so many noises that irritate me. Even sounds like people talking to loud, my pets cleaning themselves, typing, drawing, scratching, whispering and many more that I can't think of in this exact moment make me angry. But the main thing that causes me the most anxiety is the eating.
I don't want to think these things or have these feeling of hate towards my loved ones or friends, however I can't control it. I'm nervous that one day I'll break and I won't be able to take it anymore. I don't know who to talk to because it makes me feel crazy even typing this out let alone actually mentioning it to someone face to face.
If anyone has help of has dealt with this i'm completely open to any advice or coping mechanisms that worked for you. While apparently misophonia doesn't have a cure maybe there was to lessen the intense feelings that come from the triggers. Please reach out.