Is vet med really worth it?
Next year I start university as a vet med mayor, and I have tons of doubts about it.
I have 0 motivation to do it. I think it is related to the fact that I don't see animals as valuable as humans, so I'll never feel rewarded, will never feel like I'm a real medic or that my work really matters because of it. This is probably related to the fact that veterinary medicine is WAY more unproffesional that human medicine, or at least thats what it feels like! Smaller buildings, less emergencies, less responsability and less money, "less taking care of the place" and less resources, which makes you feel like animals are less than humans and that a vet doctor is less than a human doctor. I've spent all my life not being recognised for anything, not feeling like anything I did was worth it, and I don't wanna keep feeling like that. Animals have been a big part of my life, I've always had pets and I love them, but I don't have a vocation that I don't even know if I ever had in the first place. I used to be exited but I'm not anymore, and it's killing me.
Also, in my country most veterinarians can't make it to the end of the month, though it's not a big deal for me because I plan on moving out of here asap.
I am definetly doing the career and getting my degree, I'm already signed up and because the system in my country it's extremly difficult to change path. I think that after I get my degree and move out (initially to USA) I'd like to get my ABSN and become a RN for ER or something like that. But I don't now hot to feel about this, It's genually killin gme inside and it makes me sob every time I think about it.