My abuser offed himself the day of sentencing.
I don’t know how to feel. 5 steps from the courtroom and we hear that he’s not there due to an emergency. He was going to be arrested that day, I wanted my day in court more than anything. I wanted him to look at me and realize the impact he caused.
His COD was released today, I don’t know how to feel. This isn’t the justice I wanted. I am so angry and sad and numb and I don’t know how to feel. I am so angry with him, I waited 5 years for my day in court and he snuffed it out in seconds. He may have hurt me but I didn’t wish him dead, I wanted him in prison. I wanted to read my victim impact statement to him, I wanted him to look me in the eyes and realize that he no longer has power over me. I’m honestly just not knowing how to feel.
It makes it worse when it’s a family member and your family is trying to cope with what he did, but also his death.