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I didn't expect how differently people would respond to me socially after taking off the hijab.

Sure, I expected that people probably treated me differently with the hijab but I had no idea just how much until I experienced the other side.

And I mean really ordinary, everyday interactions.

I have social anxiety, which makes me hyper aware of things like eye contact, facial expressions, and people's reactions. Over time I've realized that, without the hijab, people seem to register me as an individual. With the hijab on I often felt like I was immediately categorized as "religious muslim woman'' and that was the end of the interaction before it even began.

People often say the hijab makes you stand out because it's visually distinctive. In my experience that's only half the story. I was highly visible as a symbol, but socially invisible as a person.

I've come to realize how much the hijab functions as a social boundary. Almost like it communicates ''don't intrude'' or ''keep a respectful distance''.

What shocked me most wasn't that I suddenly got more attention. It was that people stopped mentally skipping over me. It's hard to explain unless you've experienced it yourself

With the hijab, people rarely even made eye contact. Their gaze would just glide over me, almost like I was part of the background, an observer rather than someone to engage with.

Without it, I catch people casually looking at me all the time. People smile. They make eye contact. Strangers start conversations while waiting for an elevator or standing in line. Cashiers chat. These things happen surprisingly often now, whereas before they almost never did. So I notice the difference immediately.

And before someone says it's because I'm carrying myself differently, I'm really not. I wear the same clothes, have the same personality. The only thing that's changed is that I'm no longer wearing a headscarf.

One example that really demonstrates this: I go to the same coffee place all the time for years now. The guy working there never really made eye contact or chatted with me, despite seeing me regularly. Then one day I went in without my hijab. Suddenly he smiled, made eye contact, joked around with me and started making small talk. I've talked more with this guy in those 10 minutes without the headscarf on than I have in the previous years combined.

This is just one example but I've got many more. It makes me quite sad because I wonder how many small connections never happened simply because the hijab stood between me and other people.

Has anyone else experienced something similar?

I want to get something off my chest. I've noticed a dynamic that I wasn't able to articulate before. The immediate reframing of a woman's distress into a personal defect instead of acknowledging the possibility that the hijab itself can be psychologically distressing for her.

If you're unhappy wearing the hijab, suddenly it becomes:

- you have low self-esteem

- you care too much about appearances

- you need a stronger iman

- you need confidence

- you've internalized certain beauty standards

anything except admitting that forcing yourself to present in a way that doesn't feel like YOU can seriously mess with your mental health.

Women also get told that taking off the hijab won't solve your problems, and yes taking it off won't magically fix every issue in your life but it has definitely improved the way I feel about myself when I don't wear it.

I feel better about myself and less anxious in my interactions with others. Even simple things like getting dressed or shopping feels easier because I can just focus on how something makes me FEEL and what I LIKE instead of whether it works with the hijab/or modesty. Whenever I'm out and about I'm representing myself and not carrying a symbol around.

But then the conversation gets shifted into the ''you're supposed to suffer'' route. as though suffering itself is inherently virtuous. Like everything in life has to feel like a constant ''test'' and you're just supposed to endure it no matter how depressed you get.

Another thing I've noticed is how wanting to feel pretty is often treated as something shallow or childish in these conversations. As if a woman wanting to like her appearance, wear certain clothes, do her hair or simply feel like herself is somehow morally embarrassing.

There is very little compassion for the actual lived experience of women and girls who are drowning mentally while wearing it.

And once they finally take the step to removing it (which I'm sure many people reading this can confirm is incredibly difficult) they often get little to no support throughout the process because no one wants to ''encourage sin''.

It's a very lonely path so I'm glad this subreddit exists.

I’ve been wanting to write this for a while.

I started wearing the hijab very young because I developed alopecia. I didn't know I had other options at the time, and over time it just became part of me.

People in my life don’t even know I have alopecia. I’ve been covering it since I was a kid, so to them it’s just “me wearing a hijab.” So there’s a whole layer of my reality they’re completely unaware of.

Now I’m 27 and I don’t want to wear it anymore. I really can’t handle it mentally anymore. But the alopecia is still there, and my hair loss got even worse to the point that all the usual things people recommend don't work for me, so I started looking into wigs. And that's where it gets even harder.

Taking off the hijab is already something I know I’ll be judged for. But taking it off and then wearing a wig? That’s seen as really strange. I already feel like people will think something is wrong with me, or that I’m sick.

I’m honestly scared of being seen as “the weird girl”, the one who took off her headscarf just to start wearing wigs.
If it was just about taking it off, it would still be hard, but more straightforward. This feels like double exposure: first being judged for removing it, and then again for how I deal with my hair. And on top of that, having the struggle of whether my wig looks natural or not.

I've already started taking off the hijab and wearing a wig a few times and despite feeling extremely self-conscious, it still felt better than wearing the hijab.

I also feel really alone in this. I’ve never come across someone in a similar situation, either online or in real life. Someone who took off the hijab but then had to rely on wigs because of hair loss. It makes it feel like I’m the only one in the world dealing with this.

I don’t really know what I’m asking for. Maybe just if anyone relates in any way, or has gone through something similar.

Thanks for reading