Feeling completely out of place in my Hispanic/white husbands family.
My husband and I have been together for over 7 years now. I’m Black and he is Caucasian and Mexican. His family is very used to me aand I’m very used to them, they’re very kind people and have never outright made me feel unwelcome at all. Very lovely overall. The only issue is me possibly… we’ve been going to a lot of family gatherings lately which include outside friends and whatnot usually … and I’ve just been feeling so out of place at these events.. just so obviously, blantantly different to the point that I’ve become so self conscious and uncomfortable.
When it’s just me and him I’m at ease , I can really just be myself, relax, but once that changes I begin to feel major pressure and I usually just isolate myself to a degree. Now ,I’m not a very outgoing person to begin with and I don’t do well in general with environments of large amount of people, but I never feel as awkward as I’m starting to feel around my husbands family. I feel like I sound silly , and it’s probably just me and my own insecurities. I don’t know.