My baby is almost 3 months and my milk supply is disappearing.
First he stopped taking the boob. I’m always so anxious at work because we’re figuring out nannies and finances. My performance is poor, my heart’s always beating really fast. I’m too scared to call out sick.
I am not consistently pumping and losing my milk supply.
I’m really grateful for my life and the opportunities I’ve had, but I’m struggling right now.
I come from an immigrant family where the expectation was always to work hard, become a professional, and build financial stability. I never even imagined SAHM was even a possibility. I’ve worked my entire life toward a demanding career, and I do genuinely like my job. This is not about me hating my job.
But I recently had a baby (2 months old), and I barely see him. I work long hours, come home exhausted, and most of my salary goes to childcare. By the time I’m home, I don’t have much left to give.
When I was home with my baby full-time, I was sleep-deprived but genuinely happy—cuddling him, cooking, going on walks, just being present. Now I feel like I’m missing everything, and it’s been really hard emotionally.
I find myself questioning what the point of all this. I wish I could stay home, even though I worked so hard for this career.
I don’t know what the answer is—I just feel stuck between two lives and struggling with it more than I expected. I just need to vent. I wish I could be a SAHM a lot. But idk how people survive on one income. We’re can live frugally now but I’m worried about saving for our children’s futures. Paying for college, weddings, helping them out financially while they’re in school, just starting their careers. My whole life revolves around work. The area I have to live in, needing a nanny, everything.