Extreme anxiety, what can i do? do you have similar experiences?
Hi everyone,
I'm 32F and I have primary vaginismus. I've been working on it for six weeks with pelvic floor physiotherapy. In all this time, I was only able to insert half of one of the smallest dilators with the help of my physiotherapist. In home I've only been able to insert the tip.
In all this time pain hasn't been the biggest problem, but the fear/anxiety has been. It could sound like I'm a coward or it's just a minor problem, but it means I have had the next problems:
- It takes me a while to "open" my bladder when I pee
- I tremble during showers and my teeth chatter
- I find it difficult to stand without crossing my legs
- procrastinate before doing the exercises to improve my condition
- Sometimes my stomach is so tense that I can't do diaphragmatic breathing
- I feel a strange pressure inside my vagina
all these problems worsen my fear and make me feel constant anxiety, and they didn't exist before starting the treatment. I'm with psychologist too, who has helped me cope better with physiotherapy. She has give me exercises for anxiety, but none of this seems to help. My phisyotherapist told me the idea for me to gradually gain more confidence during the sessions, but everything seems to be going in the oposite direction. She's trying to figure out what to do.
Someone has similar experience? I'm not sure if continuing with the dilators is the best idea right now. I feel very lost.