Im lost…
She never really did like me, did she? not the way I liked her. She liked the idea of me. She the convenience, the way I showed up when she was bored, lonely, or needed someone to fill the silence. She liked someone who replied fast, someone who cared deeply, someone who never made her question where she stood. She liked the attention, validation, the comfort of knowing someone was always there for her, even though she wasn’t giving much back. But me, who has emotions, who has needs and expectations, that version of me was what she never signed up for, because the moment I asked for effort, the moment I wanted consistency, the moment I needed reassurance instead of confusion, that’s when everything changed. That’s when she started pulling away. Replies got shorter, energy shifted, affection turned into distance. That’s when it finally hit me, she was never in it for me. She was in it for what I could give her, the way I made her feel important, the way I listened without interrupting, the way I stayed even when I was hurting, the way I gave love freely without demanding it in return. I was safe for her, comfortable, predictable, but she never planned on meeting me halfway. And the part that hurts the most is the person who gives the most usually ends up being the one who is forgotten the fastest. I replay everything now, every conversation, every moment I ignored my gut. I see how I confused mixed signals for love, how I mistook attention for intention, how I kept telling myself maybe she needs time, and maybe one day she will choose me the way I chose her. But wanting someone to choose you shouldn’t feel like begging, and a relationship should not be constantly proving what your worth is. I stayed longer than I should have because I believed in potential and because I thought what it could be…