I’m struggling to motivate myself in recovery
I’ve been in recovery for a few months now. I’ve gained a lot of the weight back, and whilst I’ve had lots of encouragement, I can’t help but feel lonely in recovery. My mood is low, I still feel tired and feel guilty that I’m eating >!even in situations where I know I could get away with skipping a snack/meal!<. I’m finding recovery super lonely tbh, as I have very few friends to talk to and those I do have can be quite busy/not fully understanding.
Anyways I apologise for the rant, it’s just that I really am having a hard time seeing how i now look, the way clothes fit, etc. I’ve had to put cling film on mirrors in order to avoid constantly checking myself, which hasn’t helped much tbh. worst of all was when my psychologist said it may not be necessary for me to continue under an ed service anymore, as maybe “eating isn’t the problem” >!which led to me making less progress than I was supposed to and ultimately continuing to be in an ED service for longer.!<
It’s just draining tbh everyday to juggle recovery with everything else and all the changes I’ve had to deal with in the past few months- any advice would be much appreciated.
I apologise for the long rant and thank anyone who took the time to read this (though I am sorry for how long this is).