Is there such a thing as situational alcoholism?
Hello, I (27F) has been an alcoholic on and off for the last 3 years. I have been dealing with quite a lot of stuff and decided to do it in the worst way possible. However, I really want to stop and even when drinking I read/watch quitting advice. However, what I don't understand after reading about dependency to alcohol and dangers/side effects when quitting cold turkey, is why when I go back home I don't drink at all and I would have minor to no cravings. Last time was over a 10 day period and as soon as I left my parent’s house I went back to drinking. It seems impossible for me to quit when I'm at my house, but as soon as I travel back overseas to my parents, it's almost like a given that I'm not going to drink. Also my parents don't mind me drinking in front of them and have offered me a beer occasionally and I didn't struggle at all to say no.
Does anyone know why this is and whether situational alcoholism is even a thing? thank you!
PS: also I think it's important to explain the severity of my alcoholism so it's nothing light. I will not have a sober night for weeks until my body is too shattered to move from bed. And I almost always black out or don't remember what I did or who I texted the night before when I wake up. I'm beyond ashamed to confess this, as I don't speak about this to anyone. I don't have much communication with anyone and distanced myself from my friends whilst in my past relationship so I just drink alone and no one really knows this side of me.