So…I miss my dad. It’s a complex thing. But I really do.
He passed away years ago and we fought a lot. Mostly about his drinking. And his taste in dating abusive women. But I remember a time when we really got along well. At one point in my childhood I remember thinking that he was the coolest person ever. He was practically Superman to me. I hate to sound like a broken record but for what it’s worth at the time it was true. He was a cool dad.
And then he just got more into the drinking and picking fights. And it escalated for a while. Caused a lot of bad blood between us. I became angry over the years and bitter and just done. I would even get thoughts in my head about just beating the crap out of him I mean it may have even saved his life if I did. But then again it probably wouldn’t have. Cause well he was determined to drink etc.
I wasn’t even gonna post this if it weren’t for the fact he really was a good chill dad at one point. And then he just idk got worse and sick. It really confuses me and bums me out. But well there it is.
Has anyone here had something similar to this?