I miss you but love is not enough
Being with you I often found myself smaller. And I was probably your rebound.
I know you’ve been in a rough situation. I thought we could get through it together. We tried hard and we failed.
We both reached out and tried to get each other back. But we both know the problem between us has never been solved.
I told you if you weren’t fixing the problem on your end I couldn’t do anything. You said maybe just leave things for now. You said I should be free and you would focus on your problems and organize your time better for someone, which you were not sure what to do there.
I wished you said something to talk me back even if it’s an obvious lie. I was devastated I wouldn’t be the so called someone in your future, even it was me letting you face your selfishness with all my love and heart.
I told you I loved you but I couldn’t love you otherwise I kept getting hurt. You said you did the right thing. You said you were a mess.
My friend reckons I might be used by you. And this even feels more painful than the breakup.
Now it’s been over a month since we broke up. I still miss you so much. I still think of you all the time. I still feel hurt. I still cry. I miss all those glittering moments.
My thoughts changed every single minute. I passed the stage of hating you. Well maybe not fully but I am grateful for all those beautiful memories. And now I can see I am not going back. At least not back to standing with all those existing issues that I have been hating.
Love is not enough especially if it’s one sided.
I don’t know how long it will take to finally get over it but I believe it will happen in one day.