I feel stupid for getting attached so quickly
I see people that have suffered much worse situations than I do but I think I need to get this out of my chest (btw sorry if my english fails a bit, it's not my first language and I'm not very good at it)
So last Thursday I gained courage to talk to the girl I liked in economics class and she gave me her Instagram, we then begin talking all day and I even wait for her metro with her and everything is fine until she starts texting me that night saying that I made her "cum a lil", I knew she has strict parents, no friends and an abusive ex boyfriend who had fetish in treating her like a dog, molesting her and even insulting her, I thought she was just needy so I calmly say that I want to take things slowly, she apologizes and agrees with me. Next morning we talked in message and in school I even have lunch with her and went in the metro but in that night after a couple messages she begins acting strange talking about how bad her ex and his group treated her, and telling she found me pretty, cool and funny because we have similar interests but she's still in love with her ex:
"youre cool, i like talking to you but man, hes far more my type"
I appreciate her honesty but that really hurt more than I admit, I still tried to convince her to take things slowly but when she replied "i just want you to know that if i find someone better who likes me ill choose that person over you... sorry". That was devastating but I still had a little bit dignity in me and I won't stand next to her knowing I'm just a option so I replied respectfully "I understand what you're saying. I just can't be in a situation where I'm an option while something 'better' comes along." She said she understood and we didn't talk more that night
Next morning, I texted asking if she was fine and we talked for a bit and she said we could still be friends but for now it's better to keep a distance for a bit and I agreed.
I really thought this could work, she's literally everything I could ask in a girl, same interest, liked my weird and nerdy way of being, helped me raise my self esteem and said she likes me...
It was only two days but felt like a whole year, maybe I'm just overreacting but I needed to let it out for the important exams next week but yeah sorry for wasting your time reading this but hope you have a nice day