Confidence issue
Before i hop into MP i warm up against bots and istg i play like a god. Aim, movement, routes. Everything.
But the moment i hop into a pubs lobby everything is gone. My aim is horrific, i constantly mess up my movement, my right hand tenses up every gunfight, which leads to pressing the right paddle and i crouch and fck up my aim even more. I‘m not taking the routes I practiced against the bots. I start playing extremely slow.
In public lobbies suddenly i‘m the bot. And it’s not like that every round. I get hkds and vsat pretty regularly and I sometimes have 80-10 games when the lobby is good but most of the time i‘m terrible when i know i can be good. Every time i notice the enemys are good it all goes to shit. all the bot confidence is gone the second i leave the private match. Every time that happens i rage at myself and start playing even worse.
Anyone had the same issue and fixed it? I tried everything. Convincing myself i‘m actually playing against bots, hyping myself up before the round. Nothing works. It’s like i get scared, which is embarrassing lmao. Do y’all know how i can fix that?