hi guys. i’ve been doing dr. joe’s work for about a year now (been into manifestation and reality shifting for even longer). i’ve had unbelievable mystical experiences, manifested stuff in acute crisis (miracle healed my cat twice), and overall have seen an improvement in my life. but i’m struggling.
i work in education, and i went from 11 hr/week at one school to 40 hrs at two right when i needed it. but i’m absolutely running into the ground. i used to be able to access the frequency of love and abundance while standing on a bus that reeked of piss—it didn’t matter what was around me, i felt so much love. this work has transformed my relationships, made me so much more courageous and loving in how i show up with even the most challenging of students, and i’m grateful for all i’ve learned.
but the summer is coming, and i’ll be out of a job. i just heard back from a job today after making it through 4 interviews and a technical assignment (i’m a writer by trade) that they hired someone else. the recruiter was really remorseful and asked to stay in touch. she said i made a great impression on everyone. and i admit that i didn’t want that role as much as i wanted the income and benefits. but i felt really good about it all.
i used to feel so hopeful about the future and empowered to create. last summer when i started this work, i lost my whole friend group. it was brutal but necessary. now i look at this summer ahead and i just dont know what to do.
i’ve been working on a business launch in the meantime. gotten many direct downloads for it during meditation but even those are slowing. it’s just been a lot.
i know this wont be forever, and there is a way out. whenever i feel my back pressed against the wall, the infinite always gives me an answer. i’m just feeling bummed as heck right now, so if anyone has any insights or encouragement to share, i’d mega appreciate it. 💙