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Torn between staying in England moving to Barcelona, or starting over in Australia -would appreciate honest advice

I’m honestly a bit stuck and would appreciate genuine advice from people who’ve maybe been in a similar situation.
I’ve been living in England for nearly 3.5 years now. Financially, life here is stable for me I work as an AHP (OT) and can afford to travel around Europe 5–6 times a year, which I love. Unfortunately, even after 3.5 years in the UK, I still don’t feel fully accustomed to life here, especially because of the weather and overall lifestyle.
I went on antidepressants. I stopped taking them about 3 months ago because the side effects were affecting me badly, especially low libido.
I’m queer and over time I drifted away from a lot of my friendships because they weren’t really supportive of that part of me. I do meet people, but connections never seem to last unless I’m the one constantly making the effort.
Every time I go to Barcelona, I genuinely feel more like myself there. I have a few quiet friendships there and I just feel more alive and connected. The financial implications of it seem like a terrible decision. As an OT I’d probably earn around €1200/month there, which is basically a third of what I earn in the UK. Most private organisations also want exams plus B2 Catalan and Spanish.
At the same time, I’ve also been considering Australia, but I’ve never even been there so I don’t know if I’m romanticising it.
I also suffer from gender dysphoria and I’ve been thinking about starting testosterone at some point and possibly getting top surgery, so access to trans healthcare is on my consideration list. I guess I’m torn between:
staying somewhere financially stable but emotionally disconnected,
moving somewhere that feels like “home” but could make life financially stressful,
or taking a risk on somewhere completely new like somewhere in Australia.
Has anyone here made a similar choice between money vs quality of life vs belonging? Especially as a queer person or immigrant? Would really appreciate honest opinions rather than “follow your dreams” type advice.

I’m honestly a bit stuck and would appreciate genuine advice from people who’ve maybe been in a similar situation.
I’ve been living in England for nearly 3.5 years now. Financially, life here is stable for me I work as an AHP and can afford to travel around Europe 5–6 times a year, which I love. But mentally and emotionally, I don’t feel like I belong here anymore, mainly because of the weather and the overall lifestyle.
It got bad enough that I was diagnosed with SAD and went on antidepressants. I stopped taking them about 3 months ago because the side effects were affecting me badly, especially low libido.
I’m queer and over time I drifted away from a lot of my friendships because they weren’t really supportive of that part of me. I do meet people, but connections never seem to last unless I’m the one constantly making the effort.
Every time I go to Barcelona, I genuinely feel more like myself there. I have a few quiet friendships there and I just feel more alive. The issue is financially it seems like a terrible decision. As an AHP I’d probably earn around €1200/month there, which is basically a third of what I earn in the UK. Most private organisations also want exams plus B2 Catalan and Spanish.
At the same time, I’ve also been considering Australia, but I’ve never even been there so I don’t know if I’m romanticising it.
Another factor is that I suffer from gender dysphoria and I’ve been thinking about starting testosterone at some point and possibly getting top surgery, so access to trans healthcare matters to me too.
I guess I’m torn between:
staying somewhere financially stable but emotionally disconnected,
moving somewhere that feels like “home” but could make life financially stressful,
or taking a risk on somewhere completely new like Australia.
Has anyone here made a similar choice between money vs quality of life vs belonging? Especially as a queer person or immigrant? Would really appreciate honest opinions rather than “follow your dreams” type advice.