So I smoked DMT for the first time usign a cart. I'm going to give a lot of information to see if someone can relate or connect.
First I have to apologise because english is not my first language.
I tough I was ready and wanted to breakthrough. I inhaled 2 times 8 seconds and kept it more than 5 seconds.
The first dab relaxed my body, I felt calm and ready.
The second, the birds ouside began to sound like a fax machine I a began to see a lot of geometrical and colorful paterns
I tried to relax but sudenly a lot came to my mind:
"Is it a problem if I keep my eyes open"
"Am I going to ear my cats playing"
"Is time going to be really that much longer"
"Am I able to decipher the sound I'm earing"
I tried to relax and enjoy but the shapes where starting to be overwhelming.
I'm a person with a really high intellectual potential and I unfortunaltely always try to understand and find logical paterns in things. Although I knew I should not and just go with the flow, my mind kept trying to make sense of the shapes I was seing and sound I was earing. To a point where I started to bad trip a bit. I sat down, opened my eyes and my chest was pounding.
I knew that the logical thing to do was to lay down, close my eyes and try to enjoy the trip for the rest of the time. I focused on my body wich was really relaxed and I started to enjoy the trip again. I even thought of taking another dab but I was to relaxed to move. I felt like my body was being pulled gently and kept earing faint voices. The paterns where less "agressive" so I just watched them. I smiled and returned smoothly to reality. The entire trip lasted 15 minutes.
I overall felt relaxed and connected a little more to reality after the trip
Now!
- Was I to afraid to try to breakthrough?
- People with high intelectual potential... how do you let go?
- Must I wait a certain time before trying to break through again?
- Is my trip normal or did I do something wrong?
Please guide me. I want to change my relation with the physical world. Try to see past it.