u/ApocalypticFelix

this is genuinely something that pisses me off. you're not non verbal. you just don't like talking, which is okay. I hate talking. it costs me so much energy. many times I can't talk. I physically can't. But I have to force myself because NTs love to yap and make fun of people like me or try to get me to talk by staring at me and talking to me till I force some words out of me.

"You should talk more," "Why don't you talk?", "That's so weird," "Oh, you're so shy!" and then when I talk. "You're too quiet," "you speak too fast," "Can you repeat that?" or straight up disgusted faces because I have a speech impairment and masking THAT costs even more energy.

Just shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Don't try to force me to talk to you. Let me use my communication cards. Let me warm up to you on my terms. Let me talk & communicate on MY terms. Let me just nod and wave to greet you. Don't expect me to yell "Hi!" through the room. Just smile and wave back at me. Don't force me to speak.

I remember sitting at speech therapy, silently crying to myself when the therapist tried to force me to speak but nothing came out. I remember people laughing, kids and adults. I remember them talking about me. Making fun of me. Their faces filled with disgust. I remember them laughing when I tried to talk.

So, fuck you if you say you're non verbal when you just don't feel like talking.

May I present to you: My coffee spoon. It's reserved for coffee ONLY. Nothing else. My coffee mug. It's reserved for coffee ONLY. Nothing else.