I honestly just need to get this out.
I’ve been working in an IT role in a company (I cannot disclose the industry) for a little over 2 years.
The first 2 years were fine. My initial senior leadership (HOD at that time) was supportive, kind, and I actually felt like I was learning and contributing. I had clarity, work, and some sense of stability.
Then last year everything changed.
A new DGM came in, and slowly things started shifting in ways I didn’t fully understand at the time:
- I stopped being included in meetings I used to be part of
- My work started drying up or becoming unclear
- I was often left without proper ownership of tasks
- Communication towards me became cold, sometimes condescending
- I started feeling like I was being pushed out of things I was previously part of
I tried to keep going. I asked for work. I stayed available. I did whatever small tasks came my way.
But it felt like no matter what I did, I was slowly becoming invisible.
At some point, things escalated to HR as well, and I didn’t even feel like I was properly heard before being reprimanded. That part hurts more than I can explain.
And now, after all of that, I received my appraisal as “Partial Contributor” with a very small increment.
It honestly feels crushing.
Because from my side, I didn’t stop trying. I didn’t stop working. I just… stopped being included, guided, or even seen properly.
And now it feels like the final label on me is based on a version of my work that I didn’t even get a fair chance to show.
I feel exhausted, confused, and honestly just upset about it.
I don’t even know what the right takeaway is anymore—whether I failed somewhere, or whether I just ended up in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I just needed to put this somewhere because keeping it inside is getting too heavy.