u/AppointmentFluffy294

I (26F) was seeing my now ex (26M) for a few weeks after getting out of a 2 year long relationship. I have been wanting him since high school and all the talks for the future were coming up so fast. one night, I ended up facetime cheating with a friend of mine that has had unresolved feelings for me. because of my reciprocal unresolved feelings, I made actions that I regretted the next week and a half. I ended up coming clean to my ex a week and a half later because of how guilty I felt. ever since then, we have non-stopped fought about the situation/he’s brought it up time and time again because of how hurt he is. he called me a name (rhymes with more) which did not sit with me correctly. he apologized for it but still has yelled at me and tells me i deserve to be called that. after trying to fix things within the week, I ended up in the hospital for emergency surgery and he came to visit me. I thought everything was going fine despite the trust being lost, until he blew up at me randomly yesterday and yelled at me more and ended things. the way he yelled at me and told me that he never felt anything made me question so many things. I do admit to what I did was wrong. I have apologized and fixed as much as I can like blocking this guys number and socials. I couldn’t do much when I went under surgery but he blames me for not putting in effort because I undergoing surgery. all of this ended yesterday and I’m still shaken up about the whole thing. my question is should I have his this from him and had a good relationship or was this the right choice?