u/Apprehensive-Bear245

Im 6 mos post d day and im stuck in disgust. My wh is doing all the right things and wants to reconcile and it’s not enough. I’m stuck at big fat disgust w him. Just grossed out that he did this and kind of feel like he’s pathetic for doing it. Kind of like the ick but different… worse? At times my heart feels split - I want to reconcile and love him and try to move past but alas I’m stuck at being disgusted w him that this was in his capacity to do to me. From what I’ve read disgust is a hard one to hurdle. Any advice or experience?