I am interviewing with the state board of nursing as a lead paralegal. I have over 10 years experience and 4 at state level (however my state experience is from georgia) I am currently employed as a privacy paralegal 3 with the state of ga and am relocating june 1st since my husbands job is requiring it. Any tips for interviewing are appreciated.
Since starting my no contact healing journey I have noticed the amount of effort it takes me to correct my own behavior.
Sometimes I feel like a failure when I have difficult conversations w my kids or husband if I feel like I have not properly acknowledged their point of view, or blown things out of proportion. I always return and explain this to them and validate their experiences. I always admit when I am wrong and try to make it safe for them to tell me their opinions on my behavior in those moments.
It seems so effortless for other moms and sometimes I left thinking that I am ruining my own family every once in a blue moon when I have lost patience. I do feel the difficulty in shaking off behaviors ive learned from decades with my narcissistic mother and dysfunctional family.
I also do know I am working double time to pause my reactive behavior and am proud of the moments I can turn it off. It seems like in those moments I feel the most like myself... and to be honest it is bittersweet. Its as if I know who I am but I am fighting old memories of how I was raised by someone who felt like I was their enemy rather than seeing I was just a kid and wanted their love and guidance.