He doesn’t care about me.
My (22f) now ex (28m) just broke up after almost 3 years (in October). He had been telling me recently he never comes home to a cooked meal. Recently i started to work two jobs, today i finally had an off day from both jobs. I woke up at 10am and just walked my dog then did the dishes and fell back asleep and woke up around 2pm. He told me he wanted birria tacos so i went out and got the ingredients. Also i had to replace my rear wind shield wiper because almost while ago he smashed my window. He never got it fixed despite me continuously asking him.
He came home today and the food was on the stove simmering and i was cleaning. He was VERY upset that the food was not ready. He started to push me and screaming at me. He told me to get out. He was cursing me out and calling me out of my name (not new). I left and he blocked me. I still have my bed, my dresser, all of my clothes, basically everything there. All i grabbed was my dog, his harness and his food.
I feel like i kinda seen it coming because recently he hasn’t been acting actually in love with me. I wish i did it sooner. It was harder to leave since we already love together but i guess it wasn’t hard for him to put me out.
The only reason i got a second job is because after paying all my bills, i don’t have anything left. He knew it, he heard my calls with the billing telling them i cannot afford it. He never helped me with bills. He rather see me go DoorDash than help. This was before we even moved together.
Now I’m sitting in my old empty room at my mom’s house. I don’t have any friends. I feel alone. I hate myself. Anyone else that has gone through this please give me some advice on moving on and collecting my things.
To add: i think his last straw was me yelling “call the police” (ik i am an idiot) after he pushed me. He’s currently fighting a DV case against ME. We aren’t supposed to be together but we moved in together since he couldn’t come to my apartment anymore. Can’t believe this happened. I joked before we moved in together that he might put me out, he said he wouldn’t, but he did. There’s no coming back from this IK IT. Idk if all my things will be outside or not. I feel stupid i signed an affidavit for him and still… I’m left with the short end of the stick after all this.
I dont think he cares about me. He doesn’t care if i leave. It’s heartbreaking.