I just did something incredibly stupid
Normally I’m super chill, easy going and now I’m this egotistical a-hole who is above everyone else. Bragging, talking myself up and to top it all off, I don’t wanna get into details as I’m ashamed but I sent some seriously nasty messages to my ex, belittling her.
I am in this weird place where I logically know this is terrible (after the fact) and there are going to be repercussions but I don’t feel what I should feel. Why do I feel so superior to everyone? Moment to moment I’m saying and behaving in an unhinged manner and this is going to cost me.
I don’t even know how I’m gonna get out of this one, it’s pretty bad. I think I might lose my job over this one, we are all local and now the family is furious as they were included in my unhinged behaviour.
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