Wrote something without using my half dead brain. I don't know what im doing in life, my mental health is going up and down everyday
Im in my 20s completed my BE in CS last year, haven't got job in IT, stopped applying half a year back, still living in my home shamelessly scrolling through mobile everyday, i have no idea what I'm doing, i have no inspiration, no goal, no idea about my life, no knowledge of outside world, no greed of money nor food, had a little spark of going adventures a year back that too gone off now. My mind been shut down for so long that its not licking in, been running in auto pilot mode, +i have no guts to face interview (coz i forget everything), matter of fact i have no idea whats going on in life after covid, everything runs in auto, feels like my brain is half dead, i joined engineering, and passed 4 years without any big efforts.... Everyone around me got jobs or still hustling, no best friends nor a girlfriend, barely get any messages in WhatsApp (yeah i get some facebook memes from my aunt nothing else), all i do is sleep 8-9hrs a day eat whatever mom makes and use my mobile for like 11-12 hrs. idk what I'm writing my mind not working or not here at all, i get distracted so easily like i even forgot what i wrote above lol