u/AquaBhaiyya33

Hi, I am Abubakar, age 18 and i am looking for a female online friend ( normal casual one )...cuz i am terrible at comunication and i haven't spoke to a girl since covid 19 lockdown era....and i am going to take admission in bachelors or something or diploma....idk haven't figured out yet...so i wanted to improve my communication with womans/ girl before i take admission....i will be very respectfull...it will be a huge help

If you care about interests then i am into..Anime, mcu movie, gaming, pc parts like stuff

So my mom and dad are divorced 1¹/² year ago...b cuz my father thought she is cheating on him...i was with mother that she didn't and after divorce..i stayed by my mom with my sis...and after some time...she started talking to a man...i told her...why are you talking to a man non mahram...after just some time of divorce..she said he is just a friend....she kept talking to him.. .to stop her i stoped talking to her more than 4 to 5 day...she broke out and cried said she would never do that again but after a month she started again..i argued multiple times..but she didn't listen..2-4 months ago i found condoms in my wardrobe..hidden..i thought this are my father and mothers..now a week or 2 ago..he called(that man) an she pretended that its her female freind and i heard his voice...she gon 10pm and come back 6am...and now . yesterday i found another condom box..with a blanket in the next room...i can even eat propperly..cuz i dont know that meal is brought with halal or haram money cuz she has transaction with him...i am not able to wake up for fazar too....she dont know i found out about her...and all this time i thought my father is the villain for leaving her...i talked to him and he said....before marriage she had an afear with someone ( this is the different one )..and she was about to be a mother of that mans child tooo in age of 15-16...so meny people told my father Dont Marry Her She is this type of woman..but my father thought these are some rumours and he was already fell in love with her so thats why he married her...they ran to Pune..married and had me and my sis...and when i was around 7-8 yo she had another afear with someone...and my father still forgived her..and a year or two ago..my father found her ath another man....thats why he divorced her...

So i am thinking i should live with my grandma...cuz eating is became hard for me... thinking about it my head hurts...and in normal time she just starts fight with me and an intense argument ever 2-3 day a week..i think my mental health is fucked cuz in argument like this...i fell kill or die.. please tell me what to do now