u/Ardentbow_31

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Hello everyone, my name is Ardentbow. I honestly don't even know how to say this or where to start.I have been living a highly isolated life since middle school. In the beginning, it wasn't really a big deal for me; I could still find ways to enjoy myself and have fun. But lately, I can’t enjoy anything anymore. I spend most of my days feeling incredibly drowsy or just sleeping. Unfortunately, I don't own a computer, so I don't really have a way to entertain myself at home. Lately, my mind has been getting so foggy, and I’m starting to see the real psychological toll of long-term isolation.The only times I go outside are just to throw out the trash or go to the local grocery store, and even during those brief moments, I face severe anxiety and difficulties. On the very rare occasions where I actually manage to have a bit of fun outside, I feel fine, but the moment I step back into my house, a heavy sense of depression crashes over me. My religious beliefs have severely faded as well; I used to consider myself a cultural Muslim, but even that has declined significantly. I feel like I am officially entering a state of severe depression—I just don’t want to get out of bed anymore.I used to have so many dreams. For 9 years, my biggest dream was to ride a bicycle. I used to watch people riding them on the street, hoping that maybe one day I would have one too. But unfortunately, it still hasn't happened. I wanted it so badly. Instead of walking 1 or 3 hours to get somewhere, I just wanted to arrive there in 15-30 minutes. But now, I don't think I'll ever have a bicycle. My dream of owning a computer has faded away too. I always wanted one, but recently I realized that my dream wasn't actually about playing video games—it was just about daydreaming about it to pass the time. It makes sense, because deep down, I never truly believed I could ever afford one. It was just a curiosity, a way to escape reality by daydreaming, just like my other dreams. It feels a bit pathetic to admit.Right now, I don't know what to do. I don't have the money to buy the things I want. The reason I am writing this here is because I’m desperate for some advice, help, or just a kind word. Do you have any advice for someone in my situation?

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