Whenever I watch my cousins talk to each other, I get depressed because I never get invited to talk.
Even when they invite me to talk, it’s only superficial conversations.
It’s so depressing not being able to socialize with others.
Struggling with loneliness for over a decade is hard.
Being too clingy is making everyone i talk leave, even tho they tell me they want me to be clingy and obsessive, once im doing it, they leave me.
I dont wanna feel alone no more this kills me, i dont know when its enough clingy when i dont have limits.
I crave to have someone who loves me dearly.
Hey! I’m bored and looking to meet new peeps to talk to! There is more on my page about myself. They said my original post was blocked so I figured I would keep it a smaller post. You guys have a lovely night now! Hope to hear from you!
Hello, I have some free time. Come tell me about what is going on in life, what battles are you currently fighting?
Im in a good place in my life, and believe we all need someone to listen once in a while. I'll do my best to make you feel heard.
And whenever they share stories about meeting new women and dating them, when they talk about their body count just makes me feel very unwanted, inadequate and unattractive. Hearing them how they pull and bed with women, and when they ask me about it feels like they're about to rub raw salt to an deep open wound that never heals and keeps gushing blood.
Good.night everyone, sleep well, . I have a workday tomorrow and start quite early, so I really need to get some good sleep, even with depression and loneliness weighing me down. Hang in there! 💪
I’m soon going to be 20F and I feel like this deep pit within me, like day and day out, I just feel empty. Phone is extremely dry. I feel ashamed that I’m feeling a deep sense of loneliness at this age. I just can’t seem to find someone who wants to stick around. I’m always in the background of things.
I desperately want to feel something I want to feel wanted and connected with someone without being pushed aside I would like to be a priority at some point. I’m just upset because I could be an amazing friend. I listen I can make someone feel appreciated, I’m a good conversationalist- I truly try everything but it always fizzle out.
I feel embarrassed, still going places with my mom and following her about because my parents are really my only friends.
I volunteer at Children’s Hospital every Thursday and I work in a pub so it’s quite social work but at the end of the day I come back home to a quiet house a dry phone and no one knowing me. I guess this is just adulthood and I have to deal with it either way I’m gonna have to live life.
To cope with my loneliness, I’ve turned to food for years so I’ve gained weight. It’s all just a big mess. I don’t know when things are gonna get better or if I’ll always be alone, all I know is that I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy
i dont like social media but im friendless maybe i find friends there? should i download socials? it just triggers me too much but idk people think like im a creep if i go try make friends face to face
Ok so I'll just leave these here because I feel like it and no one would listen to me anyway.
I've been lonely my whole life I'm 18F and since elementary school (I think 9 years old or so) I have no friends. Won't even talk about relationships or any form of romantic experiences because these clearly doesn't exist.
I've always been that weird and very socially awkward and anxious girl in school that would talk to no one all day long. Not even a word.
And that's mostly because of my dad that traumatised me my whole childhood - me and my mom because he was aggressive and abusive which led me to severe depression and severe social anxiety and bpd later in life (since 13) but anyways that's another story and it's not about that. Now I'm good mentally. (God encountered me miraculously at 17 and healed me from depression and bpd and any other addictions) But i still remained with social anxiety.
Another reason why i would be like that is that i got bullied in elementary school and middle school and high school (and i still get bullied sometimes now in high school because of my appearance or on the streets by random mean boys) for various reasons.
Now why did I write all these ? For the lore IG
now I'm that socially awkward and anxious when i go out that i feel like an animal. I talk only with my parents and random "friends" online through text since 9. Never talked with them irl or even in call (because yeah I'm anxious even to do that. Tried multiple times but my awkwardness is too bad and I say nonsense and I stutter and speak monosyllabically)
I just really feel like a failed human with a failed life because of my appearance and very very weird and SO AWKWARD personality (I don't even have a personality since I had no influence from anyone or any entourage to form my category of person. And that's why they all avoid me now when I try at least to talk a little with my classmates)
I'm just sick of it I haven't been able to make even one friend in all these years. And I have no social skills maybe you can tell from my chaotic explanation but whatever, whoever wants can read this or not.
Also I don't get out of the house because with who? This summer I stayed inside even for weeks (like I did all my summers from my life)
The only time I met someone from online in real life is a boy I've met on a making friends/dating app from my town and after postponing him so many times to see each other irl I finally did it and was a totally failure because same as on call - we were silent and awkward most of the time and was an experience I would NEVER experience again bc of this.
That boy liked me. Why? because he's dumb and that lonely as me cuz I look horrid in real life. Online I'm the biggest catifsh and deceiver and they think I look good because that even irl (clearly not I'm a whole different person) anyways that doesn't matter much because didn't like him anyway.
I am a lonely person but not obsessed to throw myself into anyone's arms I catch and I don't think I would ever do it because no one deserves me (in the bad way) I'm way too insecure of myself and I can't even maintain eye contact with anyone (yeah I'm that autistic lol) won't even say about talking.
No one ever liked me irl, just online (cuz catfish) I get bullied irl because of my appearance and they think I look good online that's so funny to me 🤣
Anyways
Just cried because that very lonely mf I met irl and obsessed for a relationship got a real relationship for the first time and honestly I'm happy for him. I'm glad he made it. But when I saw their posts that made me instantly tear up.
I usually cry when I see a very nice couple or nice groups of friends outside and everyone being with at least one person -friend or partner while I get outside all by myself like always in these years. Don't get me wrong that's not envy. That's just sadness coming in me because all I truly ever wanted my whole life was love and connection with humans.
But that guy just gave me a crisis of crying because I knew he was as lonely as me (romantically) because he has friends.
After so many years with no friends or anyone to talk to except my mom irl I really got used to it. So not that deep anymore for me ig but I'd still like to have at least a friend.
Anyways
I crave romantic love but idk why my brain does this to me. Because I don't want to get in a relationship because I told you the reasons (also I don't want ever to admit I'm like that to someone I'll ever know and when they would ask me what I do everyday or what hobbies I have I would say: "yeah bedrotting and scrolling" because that's actually awkward) and I'm the biggest avoidant and friendzoner ever - even my biggest crush ever if I had could tell me they like me and I would absolutely say no lol.
I feel so lonely especially when all the buddies I talk to online get into relationships and I have no choice but to block them because can't see their ig stories, that would just make me cry.
Idk lol that's all pathetic what I wrote here but that's overall my whole life story (and I'm very serious - not very interesting as u may see) they would prob remove my post
I have basically given up on making friends at this point. 3 guys I have met through work or school told me I was chill and pleasant to be around, they ask for my number so we could hangout sometime. Then they proceed to ghost and block me a week later, like why even bother telling me that and asking my number if you’re going to block me in the end anyway? I’m not pushy and I don’t spam them with messages so why? People suck and I just gave up on finding platonic relationships.
I don’t know why but it’s always been an interest of mine to know what others want in life/ aspire to have.
Its a dumb question but if you could have ONE thing in the entire world what would it be (I watch Obsession so that’s the main reason for this)
my facial symmetry is off which makes me feel very unwanted and uncomfortable in social situations.
Im currently in my dads home country and ppl here are SO symmetrical and pretty.. I wanna talk to some of them in a park or smth but im so scared that ill scare them off
havent had friends since i was 15, im 23 now and feeding stray cats rn
I think I have been feeling low for a while, maybe since 1 year or so. I have been dealing with a bit of health issue since last year, and in the midst of everything I got laid off as well, worsened my overthinking and anxiety for always.
I did get another job and tried moving on but I have just become an overthinker since then. My relationship fell apart during the same time and since then I have been alone. And most days it's fine but idk why today I realised nothing has actually improved for me. I have been in a state of constant downfall for the past year and whenever I think things will turn up for me, life throws another curve ball.
Ik it feels like regular problems for most and I'm not saying it isn't, I just have no one else to share it with. So just ranting here with bad grammar not even having the urge to type coherently.
PS: sorry for the over usage of since
I have reached a stage in my life where everything feels numb and lonely . I am carrying every single heavy negative emotion all at once, drowning under a weight that nobody else can see.
My mental health is gone after that one devastating heartbreak, and it broke something deep inside me i don't miss him anymore but he took all my abilities with him. On top of that, I am struggling deeply with my career. I am currently preparing for an exam, but I feel like I am about to lose my chance again because my mental health is completely wrecked and I am unable to keep going. Watching my future slip into uncertainty while my mind falls apart makes me feel like I am failing while the rest of the world keeps moving forward. I used to have a solid circle of friends, but I slowly built walls and distanced myself from everyone until I had no friends left. I even maintained my distance from my best friend, someone who had been in my life for a very long time, because certain things transpired between us and we barely communicate ANYMOREEEE.
What hurts even more is how my extended family views me. They consider me arrogant simply because I do not talk to anyone. They think my silence comes from pride and assume that my attitude is the reason I am not reaching my goals or becoming successful. I wish someone would tell them what I am actually going through mentally.
I love my parents and my family deeply. I give them ample time and talk to them, and they are truly the only people I interact with since I do not meet anyone else. But sitting with them for more than an hour feels like a pressure cooker, as if I am about to completely burst in front of them. I refuse to let them see my weak side because they have always known me as the strong, brave girl who remains unaffected by everything. They have no idea that behind that mask, I am completely falling apart.
And on some nights, this loneliness is so intense that I just want to escape and run away from this relentless pain. On other days, I crave absolute isolation because my internal energy is melting away, leaving me exhausted, misunderstood, and profoundly alone.
Wearing a mask of strength in front of the people you love is often harder than carrying the pain itself, especially when your silence is mistaken for arrogance.
I think what hurts the most is not being alone. It’s feeling unwanted even when there are people around you.
I’ve spent so much of my life feeling like I’m never good enough. The people who are supposed to care about me have made me feel like I’m a burden, like everything I do is wrong, like I have nothing to offer. I’m constantly criticized, dismissed, compared, or made to feel like I’m worth less than everyone else.
And after hearing those things for so long, you eventually start believing them.
Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to have someone genuinely love me. Not because they need something from me. Not because of what I can do for them. Not conditionally.
Just to have someone look at me and think, “I’m glad you exist.”
I want to be cared for. I want someone to notice when I’m not okay. I want to be reassured instead of criticized. I want to be appreciated instead of taken for granted. I want to feel safe enough to be vulnerable without having it used against me.
I’ve wanted that kind of love since I was young. And honestly, after years of not receiving it, I’m exhausted.
Sometimes I wonder if there is something fundamentally wrong with me. If maybe I really am as worthless as people have made me feel.
But somewhere inside me, there’s still a tiny part that hopes I’m wrong.
I don't want grand gestures or some perfect fairytale. I just want to experience what it feels like to be someone's person—to be loved, respected, protected, and chosen.
Is it really too much to want that?
Anyone to talk to?
Currently thinking in how many time passed since i got a sincere hug when i need it. So used to cry alone since im a kid, now being an adult, i cant remember when i got a real hug. I crave so much physical contact, i feel i need it so bad, i feel (and i am), so lonely. I dont understand why im so unlucky, why nobody wants me and reach for me, as how i do when i like other people, is so unfair. Like again, why trying to meet new people, when all are going to do the same? Just forget about me, and leaving me in the end.
I would just love to hear some succes story.
If anyone suffered from severe social anxiety which made u afraid of talking to people and making friendships and let u to be isolated for years but then somehow managed to recover and live a normal life pls tell me your story.
I’m rlly interested
Today is my birthday and no one told me anything not even my family its just an other random day of my life feels like but i like how days are matched tho 28M 18/08/98
I think its cool but yea