Being too clingy is making everyone i talk leave, even tho they tell me they want me to be clingy and obsessive, once im doing it, they leave me.
I dont wanna feel alone no more this kills me, i dont know when its enough clingy when i dont have limits.
I crave to have someone who loves me dearly.
I don't understand how people can even get bored of their partners, its a thought that never crosses my mind when i have someone. How can you get bored of the one you choose, how can they leave because they want someone else, a change, anything. How?
When i have a someone the only thing that can make me separate from them its death. I don't understand seriously, why do you choose me if u are going to leave me after a while. Is it a problem that occurs only on me? Am i a boring boy? Am i exhausting? What am i to them? Weren't i supposed to be their one and only, the shine of their life, the face they wanna see when they wake up. Wasnt it all that?
Its an act i cant understand :'3
I really try to think but for me its just genuine selfishness making me devote to them only for them to leave me like im a dog who just completed all the tricks he had to offer.
I would understand if i was a genuine bad person, but i only wanted to be their loyal one that could bring shine into darkness.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Im desperate to get someone to stand me, to hold me to do anything with me, TO LOVE ME. Im so tired of fake people that tell me to keep it yandere yet they arent the one who can even look at me when i tell them i need their attention on important moments. I have warned everyone about me and i have scared everyone away even when i warned them.
Why do everyone leave me? am i not too good? Im sorry for typing all of this but its so stressful, its so heartbreaking. I always want to give love to someone yet that someone even when they tell me a hundred times that its okay that i can be like this without hurting them. THEY LEAVE!!
Clingyness is my gift yet is also my curse, hold me, kiss me, let me be ur life. Just love me.