i dont like social media but im friendless maybe i find friends there? should i download socials? it just triggers me too much but idk people think like im a creep if i go try make friends face to face
hello ive been eating benzos on and off for 10 years and right now i got valium script ive had it for a month 35mg is my daily dose (before that i ate kpins from street i didnt have script even my doctor said that get your supply from street and later we will get you a script when i got it they told me im not allowed to use other substances becus dr said theres a bigger risk relapsing if i buy from the streets
lets get to the point im a patient at the opiate clinic i get buvidal injection every 3 weeks i didnt get my valium refill because i failed a drug test with thc ive waited to get this scripts for 4 months and now im in this kinda situation
own fault? maybe? but the dr said you can piss one dirty for warning and i took it seriously i figured after this refill ima stop smoking
im allowed to get valium back when i piss clean but the problem is that i had to take kpin cus i didnt have any vals left and they stay pretty long in system i just dont know what to do im helpless did they just gave me 2 options go cold turkey or eat street benzos i hate this clinic so much bs going on they dont even treat my opiate addiction otherwise than get injection n thats it this shit makes me wanna quit the whole "treatment" employeres and doctor doesnt seem to give a fuck and mistreating
btw i were in this same treatment few years ago but i did quit because they mistreated me and now they were swear this time would be different new start
sorry long post idk what to say
hello ive been eating benzos on and off for 10 years and right now i got valium script ive had it for a month 35mg is my daily dose (before that i ate kpins from street i didnt have script even my doctor said that get your supply from street and later we will get you a script when i got it they told me im not allowed to use other substances becus dr said theres a bigger risk relapsing if i buy from the streets
lets get to the point im a patient at the opiate clinic i get buvidal injection every 3 weeks i didnt get my valium refill because i failed a drug test with thc ive waited to get this scripts for 4 months and now im in this kinda situation
own fault? maybe? but the dr said you can piss one dirty for warning and i took it seriously i figured after this refill ima stop smoking
im allowed to get valium back when i piss clean but the problem is that i had to take kpin cus i didnt have any vals left and they stay pretty long in system i just dont know what to do im helpless did they just gave me 2 options go cold turkey or eat street benzos i hate this clinic so much bs going on they dont even treat my opiate addiction otherwise than get injection n thats it this shit makes me wanna quit the whole "treatment" employeres and doctor doesnt seem to give a fuck and mistreating
btw i were in this same treatment few years ago but i did quit because they mistreated me and now they were swear this time would be different new start
sorry long post idk what to say
This might be hard to read due to my english skills but i were at the skatepark yeaterday w my so called friends? ive felt the distance over the years but yesterday somebody said it straight to my face
i were cracking jokes got a bit pushed outside the pool then i said something that insulted him and he said my name and thats why nobody likes you go away that sentence clicked my brain go away nobody likes you that seriosly hurt me and esp my mom ive always been an outcast i havent still heard from anybody from the group then i did go to my apartment smashed places cried n smoked a spliff idk if its just normal life of being an autistic bpd outcast and no one interrupted our fight there even was my friend from another city with us but nobody defended me or any