u/AreghostsEven-evil1

I've been looking for the right place to make such a request for a really long time. I'll try to keep this readable enough and on point.

I'm pretty young, probably most people don't expect to find teenagers around here. But I believe this is the best time to learn and be guided. I have my values and opinions on the world ( ill get more into them in dms, later ), the person I'd like to be, the kind of career and lifestyle I'd like to pursue, but my main issue lies in actually finding the best way to do this, what mistakes to avoid, what to learn, from where, even life and relationship advice and so on.

A little about me is that I'm 16, an artist and visionary. Or that's what I'm aiming for. One of the things I try to live by the most is being as open minded as possible, which would allow to learn and think freely without remaining stuck on certain ideologies.

As for what exactly I'd be looking for...well, first of all, someone with life experience. I would love to hear your story, what was missing in your life and how you managed to fill the gaps. About your dreams and whether or not you managed to achieve them. Maybe also about being too extreme in thinking and feeling sometimes and how to find inner peace/control such feelings.

Art wise, any kind of artist. If you published books, create short films, make illustrations, music; if you have a vision and a craft to teach, please do! Explain the whole process of getting into the industry, how, what kind of education you had, was it worth it? I'd also be more than happy to ask for advice on how to improve my painting techniques, movie shots, writing and much more.

I'm also very interested in the occult and religions, philosophy and theology. If you have studied anything in these fields, please recommend what exactly and how you applied all of this knowledge in your life or your art.

Besides building a better character, mindset and personality, I also have this desire for greatness that could only be expressed by changing the world. Every foolish youngling has, I believe, at some point, dreamt about this. I already have a plan that will be put in motion soon enough, but I'd still love guidance. I sadly don't have anyone in my life able to help with such things, most people here worry about insignificant material things. So you guys are my hope.

Also...I'd be lying if I said I'm not also looking for a friendship of some sorts or even more out of this. A muse, someone to to look up to. I know this relationship won't be fair so I promise to try to give anything of value that I own, back.

I'm sorry if I missed anything, do correct anything you might find wrong in my request or even post itself. Thank you for your time and I hope we can achieve something great together. Also really curious why you'd like to teach and guide someone in the first place?

Hello, dear and niche enfp community. First of all, thank you for existing. Being surrounded and, most importantly, heard by people who deal with possibly the same struggles as you is truly comforting to a crazy extent.

I dont want to make this longer than necessary, but I want to explain this phenomena I realised I've been reliving for most of my life.

What am I referring to, you might be wondering? A very specific approach to relationships and connections of all sorts. I haven't decided if this could somehow be linked to this mbti specifically, or if it could be something completely unrelated, but I need fresh perspectives.

The problem is, to put it bluntly, that from a very young age, 9 to be precise, I've fallen into a lovesick trap of trying to find a special someone to share life with. At first, such relationships weren't romantic in nature, but soon enough, probably due to inexperience and too much idealisation, I've started to see every person I met as a potential " partner ", falling madly in love with friends, blurring the lines and boundaries between partner and pal, obsessing over people and ultimately getting my heart broken every single time by being taken advantage of or never getting the feeling reciprocated.

Although, as a very extroverted person, I loved big groups and community and having a good time with lots of people, I've always been more drawn to giving most of my attention to a special someone. Another big problem, because of wonderful " enfp traits " which ended up being misused, such as always seeing the good in people, unhealthy optimism for the future ( believing people/relationships will change with time if I try hard enough ), people pleasing tendencies and even being naturally more gullible and childish ( not necessarily emotionally, I hope ), I inevitably ruined so many awesome friendships this way. And this also fed into more disgusting self-loathing and the belief that "Hey, I might be unlovable ".

This has only become very clear after the person I've been obsessed with for months and has even been a great boyfriend for just as long, finally decided to go back to being just friends, as we should've been from the start. Which made me think that, despite all the love and sacrifices I've done for the relationship, he was right.

I'm curious, why could this keep happening? Why haven't I been able to notice this sooner? Is there anything I could change?

And, most importantly, does any of you guys relate to this? If yes, what did you do? I'm honestly still in a pretty numb state after this happened, and after I came to this conclusion. Any advice for a young fellow lost enfp?

I hope I've explained this well enough, but if there's any misunderstandings, do let me know :)