Why do you practice magic? What is your reason?
You don't have to give every detail as to why or even tell at all. I just more so want to find my place in this community, find similar experiences or just discussion.
My reason for bringing this up is because of my own capability (yet failing) to practice magic.
I meditate or rather take a moment of mindfulness at the end of every day to affirm and understand what I'm doing and what I want. I would say this grounds me. Regarding this, I want to do more spellwork but find myself struggling to do so, either because I'm not actually grounded or because it's a different feeling like maybe anxiety/worry or guilt. And this feeling sits in my chest.
So I'm trying to figure out the source of my problem and decipher my own reason for wanting to practice.
I'm not so much asking for advice because I can find it in resources. Rather, I wish to know why magic is part of your life. How did you come to your practice, journey, and why you do it?
For me, I've always thought magic and just witchcraft was interesting and cool even as a child but I don't want it to be just that. For me personally, that kind of thinking isn't a good reason, or even does justice to the world that is witchcraft.
So if you don't mind sharing, I'd like to know your thoughts and your story. From the lineages to the new gens, be it from surface value or something deeper, I'd like to understand witchcraft better along with where I may stand with it.
Edit: Thank you all for your insights and stories. I'm glad to have read all your experiences and journeys, I'm even more pleased to see the variety. Although I may not know your stories entirely, it gives me comfort in knowing that even just the basic reasoning of, 'I want to', or 'because it's cool, inspiring' is fine.
Personally, the word 'control' could be to my advantage or disadvantage in my practice as a means of meant to be, or not (labels that may/may not describe me). And maybe that's shallow thinking because of the immense possibilities but I seek for depth in what I do, consume and bring forth.
For now, I will keep my practice, maybe enhance it, try different forms of meditating and add other rituals to my everyday life and keep exploring. I really appreciate your insights and connections to magic. I'm sure I'll find where I fit best and what I connect with most.