I (20F) feel like being too much in my relationship with my bf (20M)
Me 20F and my bf 20M have never been casual. We've been dating for 7 months now (btw it is my first relationship ever) and we talk about the future all the time, so yeah, pretty serious. We have a healthy relationship and we always prioritize communication. However, sometimes some of his behavior makes me anxious. Like I'm doing too much? Whenever I have some time off, I always want to hang out with him and spend some quality time together. I even learned all about this game he keeps talking about. When I'm not feeling okay or if I'm pissed at him, he always tells me to talk to him, and I always open up right away. Everytime. I'm always there. But he is the complete opposite. Whenever he wants to relax, he almost always needs to spend time alone (which I respect). Same thing when he's annoyed or pissed at me. He does eventually open up I guess.. but still. I kinda feel like I'm just hanging there, you know? All of this makes me feel so dumb. Like, how is it that the first thing I think of when I have some time off is spending that time with him when he would never think to text me? I don't want to sound dramatic or anything, also I'm not implying that he would never text me at such occasion.. however, I'm hurt. I'm hurt and I constantly feel like I shouldn't feel this way? I'll give you guys an example. Yesterday, he was studying for this exam. I texted him goodnight and didn't even bother calling him, since I knew he was busy. He saw my message and left it on read. The entire day he didn't say anything.. I didn't say a thing aswell. And then, during the afternoon he just sent me a 30 sec memo. Like?? Man I feel bad, because I don't want to ignore him, but man.. I completely understand that he had his stuff going on. I respected that. But I still feel dumb because whenever my agenda is literally bursting because of how busy I am, I always find time to talk to him. ALWAYS. And he couldn't even reply a good night back?? And then he just sent me a memo as if nothing happened. Man I don't know what to do. I want to talk to him, because I simply love him so much. But at the same time, I feel like a fool if I do. I don't want to break up. As I said, I love him and I believe that we can work through everything as long there's no cheating involved. But I also don't know what to do. HEUSIEJFWOOE help