Pretty new to making music in general. Normally I make video game adjacent songs as that is the reason I started to dabble into music in the first place. Yesterday I got inspired to do something a bit chillax but i still used the video game soundfonts I had. Criticism very welcome.
OK, I can’t believe I’m turning to Reddit for something like this. I feel like that in itself showcases the position I’m in. I am a 19 yr old student living abroad studying to enter medical school and I need to pass a certain exam that is pretty challenging and I need to be putting hours into studying for that. I’ve been struggling recently with my career path and how it does not align with what I want my future to be.
I’ve always been consistently top of my class since first grade. However, recently, with this study abroad, I have not found the motivation to really put any effort into studying because, from the jump, me and my parents had a fundamental disagreement about the career path that I should follow since before I even travelled.
My parents, both of them being doctors and their oldest child having excellent grades, naturally have a big bias towards me following their footsteps because that’s what they would think I would be happy with. I don’t agree with that, but I went with it anyway, despite giving them a lot of pushback and said I would “give it a try before saying no" to appease them.
But now, being abroad for the first time ever with having passed four months here, when push came to shove, I have not been doing well at all with keeping up with my course and I just feel like a loser doing nothing (because I probably am being one).
With four months left until the exam, it feels like just enough time to get my shit together, but also I can’t afford to waste any more time.
I know the bulk of the advice that will naturally arise is to cut the tree from the roots and just be upfront with me not wanting to get into this career path in the first place. But that is something for me to do in the future under better circumstances, likely in person. Me passing this exam can be a great way to show that I CAN get into medical school but DON'T WANT TO, not because I’m bailing out/taking the easy road, but because it’s not what I think works for me RIGHT NOW.
So what I ask for is advice for what to do in this short term period of 4 months to get my shit together before any of the big conversations afterwards.