u/Arrsenale

I'm currently in a living space (rehabilitative community) where we can't use anything that can break and eventually used to hurt others/themselves but I am worried if there would be a problem for reading tea leaves, like maybe not adhering to the cup enough or vice versa.

I'm honestly not even sure if there *are* plastic sets (that aren't for kids). What other non dangerous materials could I look for?

My apologies if something is not clear, English isn't my main language.

The other evening I tried divinating with my playing cards and was confused by the answer (sadly I forgot to record anywhere what I pulled), so I cunsulted my elder futhark runes first and then tried with tarot too to get a better grasp at what they meant. I asked all of them the same question "If I get in contact with my cousin from my father's side what should I except?".

As for the runes I got in the following order: ᛒ berkana, ᛚ laguz, ᚺ hagalaz.

From my personal notes berkana is connected to family and new beginnings, laguz with movement and the unconscious, and hagalaz with destruction and transformation, so I interpreted that yes, it would be a new experience but it would end up hurting me emotionally or "mentally".

But I wanted to be sure, so I pulled out my tarot cards and these came up: upright 5 of swords, upright page of swords, reversed 5 of cups, upright 10 of cups, reversed Justice.

From the first four cards I though about how there would be some initial conflict (which I though it would be more internally as my parents were divorced and have barely had contact with the my father's side of the family) but with the right communication I would move on and have a happy relationship with them (perhaps even get to know more family members/get to know some family history). However, the *reversed* Justice stumped me, especially since I my personal notes, for what could apply, there's the option of "not learning from the past" and "failure to learn from lessons", which could entirely flip the script. For some context I do not have a good relationship with the maternal side of the family and am currently no context with all of them.

So, does anyone have any ideas? Maybe noticed/know of details that I may not have noticed?

Since discovering the enneagram I've been sure of my main type as I have always been terrified and had quite literally told myself when feeling low that I am useless and have always hoarded knowledge aneough to have a migraine.

For a while I was pretty confident that I was a 5w4, however now I am not so sure due to recent events.

On one hand I feel utterly different from others on a deep level in a way that only those open minded enough to weirdos or similar minorities would understand, and I've always been a bit of a "hipster" and absolutely love getting reactions of surprise and shock at things such as my musical tastes. However I am deeply afraid of being abandoned, not having anyone to stay by my side and to want to *both* understand and accept me as I am. What is making me confused the most is this deep sensation of abandoment, while also wanting to stay true to myself.

While I'm at it I've often theorised I am a 549 however that can easily change if I may be a w6.