u/ArtificiallyOrganic8

I need to get my laptop cleaned and liquid metal reapplied , where can I get the best possible service for my laptop near Uttara?

Is Star Tech/RYANS any good? Do they have experience handling liquid metal?

**TLDR at the bottom**

This will be a messy read.

I would like to apologize in advance if I sound too boastful in any way, I am desperately trying to explain my situation however best I can.

The past year and a half I've barely had any self confidence due to what has been going on with my voice. I have always received plenty of compliments on how deep and resonant my voice sounded. Ever since I was little I've had a tremendous fascination with how movie stars or animated characters speak and a BIG fear of mispronouncing words(this will come into play later) or sounding "too foreign" and getting made fun of.
All this led me to obsessively shadow the lines from any movie I liked and by the time I was 16 I had a solid British Accent followed up with a little bit of dialect practice I sounded completely native.

Fast forward 2 years(18), I had achieved a neutral American accent and I noticed that my voice sounded full, resonant and like it was coming from the chest. I also discovered I could do the voice of any characters I liked(Elmo, Jack Sparrow, Davy Jones, Mickey Mouse, Tywin Lannister, Chandler, Ross, Mike Tyson, Genie from Aladdin Etc.) on command. No matter what the sentence or the word might be, I was able to say it and pronounce it in a native manner with that full resonant voice with 0 problems. This ability even helped me score a band 8.5 on the IELTS.

I speak 4 languages (Bangla, Hindi, Urdu), English, Arabic and Japanese. And in all of those languages I had that full resonant and chesty quality that would make me sound native in all of them. This would happen even when I would say bits of French or Spanish. I had the tendency to copy them perfectly.

**PROBLEM STARTS HERE**

I moved abroad by the time I was almost 19 and the problem started 2 years after moving.
I had a period of severe depression and anxiety(I've always been somewhat of an anxious person) due to some issues I was facing there and I started to smoke marijuana almost on a daily basis. I noticed smoking marijuana would make me very anxious the first couple of minutes and my anxiety of "sounding wrong" or mispronouncing would spike and I would avoid speaking in English and just resort to speaking in my native language since I would not be judged even if I spoke it badly.

At the time I was also working part time in the hospitality industry and I noticed I would often avoid speaking English to foreign customers and resort to speaking only Japanese as it was easier to pronounce(the sounds are closer to my native language) and because I would feel like my chest voice isn't there sometimes(or maybe it was my anxiety that stopped me, I cannot be sure).
Gradually over six months I felt my chest voice become more and more absent and I would also use it less and less.
*I would often notice my voice felt fine when I was drunk*

By the time I returned to my home country(a year ago) I couldn't access my chest voice at will. And it has been affecting My Personality, My Confidence, My Social Behavior as I can no longer keep up that smooth conversationalist persona.

**PROBLEMS I AM FACING**

1. Inability to access my chest voice at will.
2. Problems with pronouncing words correctly. Example: I would generally pronounce the word "Voice" as 'Voys' but now when I speak it sounds like I said 'Vois'.
3. Running out of Air between words, like my breath fell short.(All languages)
4. No matter what sentence I use since my pronunciation is different it feels wrong even when it is correct. I heavily relied on the way I spoke for writing things as it sounded natural in my head but the less I have access to my chest voice, the worse my diction gets since I am unsure if it sounds natural. Thus, I am slowly getting worse at writing English on the fly.
5. My inner voice is also changing(I think I subconsciously use my larynx even when I am simply thinking without making any noise and I feel like I am mispronouncing words even inside my head).

**OBSERVATION**

In the 1 year I've been back home, I've only gained access to the chest voice and my flow of language only twice or thrice.

The first time it was when I was practicing loudly trying to brute force my way into the chest voice and it actually worked for the whole evening I had that voice.
The second time it came back out of nowhere for two days straight but then just back to as it was.
(Either of these times, it was never at full capacity, maybe 70-80%)

But the thing is I never really needed to be loud to access the chest voice, it was simply always there.

I do not understand what is happening, I've talked to GPT about it and it suggested I have, through anxiety and body tension, elevated my Larynx muscle which is why I don't feel the column of air support at the base of my throat and apparently this happens to a lot of singers and voice actors.

So I am seeking your help on this matter. Please give me your best advice.

Feel free to ask questions to better understand the situation if required.

TLDR; My chest voice disappeared and my life has been in shambles since. Seeking advice on how to get my voice back.

**TLDR at the bottom**

This will be a messy read.

I would like to apologize in advance if I sound too boastful in any way, I am desperately trying to explain my situation however best I can.

The past year and a half I've barely had any self confidence due to what has been going on with my voice. I have always received plenty of compliments on how deep and resonant my voice sounded. Ever since I was little I've had a tremendous fascination with how movie stars or animated characters speak and a BIG fear of mispronouncing words(this will come into play later) or sounding "too foreign" and getting made fun of.
All this led me to obsessively shadow the lines from any movie I liked and by the time I was 16 I had a solid British Accent followed up with a little bit of dialect practice I sounded completely native.

Fast forward 2 years(18), I had achieved a neutral American accent and I noticed that my voice sounded full, resonant and like it was coming from the chest. I also discovered I could do the voice of any characters I liked(Elmo, Jack Sparrow, Davy Jones, Mickey Mouse, Tywin Lannister, Chandler, Ross, Mike Tyson, Genie from Aladdin Etc.) on command. No matter what the sentence or the word might be, I was able to say it and pronounce it in a native manner with that full resonant voice with 0 problems. This ability even helped me score a band 8.5 on the IELTS.

I speak 4 languages (Bangla, Hindi, Urdu), English, Arabic and Japanese. And in all of those languages I had that full resonant and chesty quality that would make me sound native in all of them. This would happen even when I would say bits of French or Spanish. I had the tendency to copy them perfectly.

**PROBLEM STARTS HERE**

I moved abroad by the time I was almost 19 and the problem started 2 years after moving.
I had a period of severe depression and anxiety(I've always been somewhat of an anxious person) due to some issues I was facing there and I started to smoke marijuana almost on a daily basis. I noticed smoking marijuana would make me very anxious the first couple of minutes and my anxiety of "sounding wrong" or mispronouncing would spike and I would avoid speaking in English and just resort to speaking in my native language since I would not be judged even if I spoke it badly.

At the time I was also working part time in the hospitality industry and I noticed I would often avoid speaking English to foreign customers and resort to speaking only Japanese as it was easier to pronounce(the sounds are closer to my native language) and because I would feel like my chest voice isn't there sometimes(or maybe it was my anxiety that stopped me, I cannot be sure).
Gradually over six months I felt my chest voice become more and more absent and I would also use it less and less.
*I would often notice my voice felt fine when I was drunk*

By the time I returned to my home country(a year ago) I couldn't access my chest voice at will. And it has been affecting My Personality, My Confidence, My Social Behavior as I can no longer keep up that smooth conversationalist persona.

**PROBLEMS I AM FACING**

1. Inability to access my chest voice at will.

2. Problems with pronouncing words correctly. Example: I would generally pronounce the word "Voice" as 'Voys' but now when I speak it sounds like I said 'Vois'.

3. Running out of Air between words, like my breath fell short.(All languages)

4. No matter what sentence I use since my pronunciation is different it feels wrong even when it is correct. I heavily relied on the way I spoke for writing things as it sounded natural in my head but the less I have access to my chest voice, the worse my diction gets since I am unsure if it sounds natural. Thus, I am slowly getting worse at writing English on the fly.

5. My inner voice is also changing(I think I subconsciously use my larynx even when I am simply thinking without making any noise and I feel like I am mispronouncing words even inside my head).

**OBSERVATION**

In the 1 year I've been back home, I've only gained access to the chest voice and my flow of language only twice or thrice.

The first time it was when I was practicing loudly trying to brute force my way into the chest voice and it actually worked for the whole evening I had that voice.
The second time it came back out of nowhere for two days straight but then just back to as it was.
(Either of these times, it was never at full capacity, maybe 70-80%)

But the thing is I never really needed to be loud to access the chest voice, it was simply always there.

I do not understand what is happening, I've talked to GPT about it and it suggested I have, through anxiety and body tension, elevated my Larynx muscle which is why I don't feel the column of air support at the base of my throat and apparently this happens to a lot of singers and voice actors.

So I am seeking your help on this matter. Please give me your best advice.

Feel free to ask questions to better understand the situation if required.

TLDR; My chest voice disappeared and my life has been in shambles since. Seeking advice on how to get my voice back.