Need lobotomy
Sos help i interacted with this man TWICE for a total of 1 hr last wk & i have not stopped being obsessed !!!!!!
This person was giving a talk at my job from the community (i work in health care) like a luncheon
Within my age (late 20s early 30s) & i notice “is he..cute?”
I ask my coworkers this out loud & they laugh.
Immediate attraction, immediate lock in.
At the end of the meeting, i was getting ready to ask for potential employment. Another coworker approaches & asks if his company is hiring, he says yes. When she asks how the pay is, he says its competitive. She walks away & i linger for a follow up question, he says to email a resume.
I have not sent a resume yet bc i worry how me applying to this job will make my coworker feel. She did send a resume (which i reminded her to do ) & got a callback for an interview.
Im happy for her but annoyed at myself bc i didnt put myself out there (the job was appealing albiet my limerence).
Anyways i have spent this whole wk thinking about this man & this job that i havent even applied to !!!
Going through the family fb ALL of it
I kNOW this is not okay plssss
I had to get it out bc he just updated his ig bio (coincidently) alluding to being in a relationship in addition to other little things , so my heart feels broken??
Bruh
Anyone got insights on how to not do this?
Like why didnt a shoot my shot at all..why didnt i send that resume & instead encouraged someone else to do it? Why engage in stalking behavior rather than act on what i want