I'm AuDHD and I'm relying too much on alcohol.
Any others who share one or both diagnosis' that have dealt with this? In my mind, I'm not fun unless I drink. My mind doesn't get quiet unless I drink. I'm not a fun parent if I don't drink. I can't be sexy for my husband unless I drink. I can't even enjoy gatherings or outings without it. And it's not like I have to be drunk, it's almost as if just the ritual of making it and/or tasting it does something to me. I use it as a reward for myself after a long day. I am very functional but it's getting out of hand. I'm at the point of cracking a beer at noon and a few shots of tequila throughout the rest of the day. I'm already pretty petite and I feel it affecting my body. Looking for support, advice, anything to help with this feeling of failure and shame. #autism #audhd #autismalcoholism