Sorry if what I write does not make sense, I am still pretty young relatively and just went through a break up, I had been dating her for a long time and everything was going well, that's when I started to notice weird things like she was interested in things she was not before and would randomly turn her location off and say the app was glitching or would text people I have never seen her text and she would say it's just an online friend, and she cancelled seeing me multiple times in a row because she felt sick or could not anymore, and a bunch of other random stuff I can't remember ATP,
eventually I started to think she was liking someone else and losing interest and me and when I tried talking to her about those things she would always start an argument over those things, something else I would like to add is I'm not very good mentally, and she was not either i sh and attempted suicide once before with it failing, so a lot of the times when I would bring stuff up she would gaslight me and sh,
after trying to talk through things again with her one day she decided that was the day to break up I was obviously heartbroken over it, but she didn't seem to care a lot and during that time after the break up I spent a lot of time with my family, and went no contact with her, and I was not going to school during that time of 4 days and I went back to school on Monday, and I ended up seeing her there I was not shocked by that I really expected to see her there, but it still hurt a lot and brought up a lot of those emotions I had been working through during those past couple days, and so I had decided to text her the next day because I was feeling very conflicted when we broke up she told me that she still loved me and that we could still be friends and maybe get back together some day and that she wanted to work for something better for us, those are her exact words, so after deciding to text her I just went to bed which was pretty hard but when I woke up I texted her and called to see if I was blocked, I wanted to know she got the message she responded right away, and we talked for a minute then I told her I had to go and get ready for school fully and stuff and was asking if we could call later tonight because I wanted to actually talk with her about stuff she said she could not call and wanted to text throughout the day instead I said that would not work for me because I'm going to be at school and I'd prefer calling so what I had to say could not be screenshot or something.
I end up getting through my day of school and text her about it and during that time I decide to check her TikTok, so I unblock her and check it and its about how she liked another guy and it was the guy I thought she was cheating on me with the one I had asked her multiple times about. And what I had saw there confirmed that she was cheating on me so instead of waiting for a call I text her and start asking about what time she can call she still says she can't so I waste her time a little and then end up telling her not to contact me anymore and to not say hi to me at school or anything. I've skipped out on a lot because I don't know where or how to add it these last things are just me venting ICL.
I had suspected she was cheating on me for 2 weeks before our break up and after talking to her brother it confirmed it, I still think its wild every time I would ask if she likes him she would respond with no, she dyed my hair like a day before breaking up with me saying we should get matching hair, and just looking back at stuff like when she would hide texts or her location just hurts still and throughout a lot of the relationship we isolated me from people making me reliant on her probably because she was scared I would leave her if I was not, and then when she found new friends and other people to hang out with she would cancel being with and instead go with the so I feel like she used me and threw me away, she also was saying hi to me at school and stuff thinking we are chill like WTF you cheated on me, and would I messaged her today she was asking why I had her blocked on socials like why TF would I want to see you saying how much you love another guy,
so to wrap it up I'm isolated and have no friends now, I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore another fucked thing she did was when she told someone that we broke up and the person asked how I was doing her and her friend starting laughing about it. I'm still missing stuff, but I don't understand why someone I would trust so much did that to me.
Sorry for everything being so scattered I'm just lost now because I have nobody in my life.