1st time cutting and.. it just helped...
Hi... Idk where to talk about this. Been going through some stuff and I cut yesterday night. It just helped.
I want to preface that I wasn't a teenager that self harmed except a couple of times by direct manipulation of my ex (we were 14/16) who romanticized it.
But lately i do have been having urges when discussions with my partner escalate. These aren't agressive discussions but they are very intense conversations and I'm hurting a lot. Idk what to do with myself when emotionally it gets too much and the urges started there. Urge to provoke vomit (which i never had before) urge to cut (same).
Yesterday i cut. I didn't know how else to control the pain. I was lost, alone, i can't speak about this and cutting... just helped ... It wasn't anything deep but my body focused on something else and it was like taking my sos meds for anxiety but with no need for a pill. It was instant. I was a bit shocked, it didn't even hurt.
Idk what I'm searching for in this reddit post but, as an adult (32) i'm very confused about this urge now and about how it...just helped ..
I don't feel like I'll get addicted but also in my case I am seeing no harm done. I am confused.
Well .. thanks for listening..