I’m honestly heartbroken right now.
Today a relative of mine said some truly disgusting things about our own trans family member. The way they spoke about her like she was a joke, like she wasn’t even a real person it made something inside me break.
They’ve always been old-school and kind of racist, but hearing that level of cruelty from someone I grew up around… it hit me in a way I wasn’t prepared for. It made me realize that people I’m biologically connected to would never be emotionally safe for someone like me.
And the worst part?
It made me wonder what they would say about me if they knew that I am a Lesbian 😔
My mental health is already shaky, but today just pushed me into this heavy, sinking feeling. I don’t want to hate anyone, but I’m tired of pretending their words don’t affect me.
A part of me can’t wait for the day I leave this country and naturally lose touch with people who make me feel small, wrong, or unwelcome. It feels sad, but also like the only way to protect my peace.
I just needed to let this out somewhere, because right now I feel really alone.
Thanks for reading. 💜