I stopped trying to convince people that my trauma was real
I have PTSD because of my parents, especially my mother. She was a deeply dysfunctional parent, and I don’t think she will ever fully understand or take responsibility for the damage her actions caused.
For a long time, I didn’t know what to do with the anger I felt. I was angry about the injustice of my childhood, about the things I had to endure, and about the fact that the person who hurt me will probably never truly acknowledge it. I tried different ways of dealing with that anger. I spoke to people, hoping for empathy and real understanding. I wrote posts about it. I also wanted to help others recognize abuse in their own lives, especially if they were still confused or unsure about what had happened to them.
But over time, I stopped talking about it so much. I realized that other people’s opinions about my personal experience don’t really matter. They were not there. They did not live through it. And honestly, it is not their business to judge.
One of the things that made me even angrier was how many people automatically sympathized with my mother just because she is a mother. They ignored the harm she caused and focused only on her role, as if being a mother automatically makes someone innocent or deserving of endless excuses. Seeing that kind of bias made me realize that I don’t need validation from people who are not willing to see the full truth.
I’m sharing this because maybe someone else has a similar fury inside them and doesn’t know where to put it. Maybe they are still looking for understanding from people who will never give it to them. Maybe they are still hoping others will finally see the injustice clearly.
For me, I’ve reached a point where I don’t care as much about what people think. If one day I need to speak up, I will fight for the truth and do everything I can to seek justice. But until then, I don’t want my healing to depend on other people’s opinions. My experience was real, the damage was real, and I don’t need everyone else to understand it for it to be true.