Im scared of change
Hi, I’m just venting at this point but I feel like I have a heavy weight in my chest these past few months. I feel like my life is having a « turning point » where everything change. I’m scared and I don’t even know if I’m excited or not. The thing is, I’m looking for an apprenticeship and I MAYBE got it, in a big city, far from my family. I love big cities and I love the one I’m going to be in but I’m feeling so nostalgic, melancholic even. I’m thinking of times where all of my siblings were at home, we played games really late in the night and I didn’t have to care about anything. Even now, I’m at an internship and I love my colleagues, the environment is great, but it feels so strange to me that I’ll never see them again. Sometimes I feel like I’m watching my life. What if I’m making the wrong choices ? What if I give up on my dreams ? What if I get caught up in a life I don’t want ? I hate change. So much